Weigh In Update SV! I've had no power :(

I haven't written since I live in New Hampshire and if you haven't heard we have been in a state of emergency due to hellish winds and rain. I lost power on Thursday night and didn't get it back until Saturday morning. UGH! Lucky for me I have a membership to Planet Fitness (which did have power) so in addition to getting my work outs in I was showering there, I can be so resourceful LOL.

On my weigh in night, Thursday, I lost another 2.6lbs bringing the total to -18.4lbs in 7 weeks and making me so happy I can barely stand it. SWEET!

Today I went to Mohegan Sun (why not no one had power around here and we had already paid for the bus tickets). My mother went and a bunch of my friends, none of us had been before in my group. We had a great time. I didn't win big :( but I did break even. I drank more beer then I should have and we ate at the buffet. I was really good there though and mostly ate salad and clams since they were fantastic. The bus ride was pretty long and I was glad to get back and see that I had power. Now it's time to relax and go to bed :)

This work week is killing me!

Work has been an absolute nightmare this week; I am so busy. Tomorrow I have to go in early (which sucks SO bad, it's hard enough for me to get up on Thursday mornings to work out without having to try to do it even earlier) and I'm going in early because I have a networking brunch. What kind of organization schedules a brunch on my weigh in day? I mean really what are these people trying to do to me? I've come to grips with these types of work situations though (fruit is my friend), well unless they end up being so boring I can't stop thinking about the bacon I'm smelling...then we might have a problem.

I skipped the gym today. Well not exactly, I mean I did drive around the parking lot but there were no spaces and I was not walking from the back of the building in the dark (this was after work) in the pouring rain. No thanks. I just went home and did The Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout. I did this one last week and I really enjoy it. Actually that is a complete lie, I hate every second of it but the workout is fantastic and I think that this might be something that I do each week. I'm hoping to get up early enough tomorrow to do it in the morning too. I'll have to wait and see how that goes though.

I changed dinner with my Oma from tonight until tomorrow night since she wants to have pizza from the local pizza place. I'm going to use that as my after weigh in treat tomorrow night. I really can't wait and from what she said when I spoke with her this morning, neither can she :)

ugh where is the weekend?

It's only Tuesday and I'm already looking for it! Tuesdays are my worst work day. I'm basically glued to my desk answering all the incoming calls, taking intakes and solving problems for other workers that are not available as they arise. Just a few things I dealt with today would be some walk in's looking for help (mostly $$), supervision with my boss, a hoarder with bed bugs and an unmediated schizophrenic that needed groceries. I have to say it was a slightly overwhelming day and I am glad it's over.

I was so busy that I missed breakfast but I just saved that and ate my weight watchers bagel (toasted) with laughing cow cheese for an afternoon snack. I never have an afternoon snack, well that's not true sometimes when it's that time of the month I have popcorn but it's really rare. I'm kind of glad I did though because I wanted to make my egg casserole for dinner and it takes a long time to cook it so I didn't eat until 745. Well worth the wait though I LOVE THIS MEAL, I love the leftovers, it's just fantastic. I've put the recipe in here before (and talk about it a lot so look back at my old posts if you want it, I believe I made it really early on during the first week of my blog).

I went to the gym after work. I didn't want to but I did it. I did 35 minutes on the arc trainer and then 30 minutes on the elliptical. I am nervous about the weather the rest of the week; they are saying both snow and rain so who knows? I'd like to get in there tomorrow night and Thursday morning but we will see how that goes. I really am open to the OnDemand exercise videos but I'd like to only do it one of those days if I have too, not both.

I have enough points leftover tonight for a vitabrownie and chocolate sugar free pudding I think I'm going to put the pudding right on top...sweet :)

Wicked LONG day!

It's 930 pm and I just got the opportunity to sit down, UGH. Today was a long one but everything worked out. I had work, then the gym (35 minutes on the arc trainer and strength training), then the laundry mat, then my friend's daughter's basketball game. They are in the Finals and they won, YAY! Next game is on Friday night and I'm sure I'll be going. Her daughter is a senior so this is a HUGE deal, it could be the last time she gets to play.

I got home from that and still had to make something for dinner (my go to easy dinner= boca grillers burger w/fat free cheddar, lettuce, tomato and bbq sauce and a pickle on the side and skim milk). YUM! Then I had to put my laundry away, do the dishes, cut up all the fruit and veggies I bought the other day and make my lunch. I'm ready for bed! It's time for Big Bang Theory and then that's where I am headed.

Side note: whatever the Ex wrote yesterday he apparently deleted, I didn't get a chance to read it. I don't plan on using this blog as a bickering tool between the two of us. Thanks for reading :)

It's been awhile...but it's over ugh oh well.

The ex...why do I waste my time? The amount of time I spend convincing him I'm not with someone else could be used spending time finding someone that actually appreciates me. I went out with him last night (yeah that's right he might occasionally be the "friend" in some of my postings). But you know what? SO WHAT! Today showed me another complete waste of my time.

Tonight is a whole new situation and I have to deal with the same old same old. Same old bullshit and same old ridiculous questions. I give up. I've got no more in me. There's only so many days that you can do nothing, stay at home and still be accused of bullshit. In fact I don't really care anymore, the only thing I wish was my actual life was just as exciting as my talked about/pretend life. Oh well, maybe next year, a girl can dream right???? :)

Not OP today :(

Ugh, today I dropped the ball. I went to play Meat Bingo (LOL, yes it's bingo but easier and you win meat packages instead and the benefits go to the veterans). I had said I was not going to drink but that went right out the window, 4 Bud 55 later I was ready to go out for dinner with a friend.

We decided to get some appetizers and have some more beverages. UGH! I had another bud light and we split crab stuffed mushrooms (I had 2) and fried crawfish tails (I had 1/2 the order w/cocktail sauce). Then we went to another place to play pool...aka 2 more bud lights and chicken nachos w/cheese, tomatoes, green peppers, jalapenos and salsa. Then when I got home I said screw it, I've already been bad and ate the Reese's Heart I've been saving.

That's that, it's time for bed and tomorrow is a fresh start that starts with the GYM! Only problem is I have to sell raffle tickets for the American Legion Women's Auxiliary in the a.m AND sell them at the breakfast smelling sausage, bacon, home fries, eggs, pancakes, french toast and toast all morning...must make it through it!

No meat on Fridays during Lent

On Fridays during Lent I can't eat meat. Obviously there are a million other things that you can eat. I'm on a Homeless Coalition Board and I have quarterly lunch meetings regarding different topics with the focus being homelessness. I really enjoy the people that participate and since I'm a social worker homeless individuals are a part of the population that I work with I need the information that is presented at the meetings. My problem yesterday with the meeting is that it's a lunch meeting...it's a Friday during Lent. The lunch served, club sandwiches w/roast beef and turkey, potato chips, olives, clementines and cookies. UGH, I know I'm not the only one in the world that couldn't eat meat yesterday! I settled with 2 clementines and a few olives.

Then last night I wanted to go to my friend's daughter's basketball game. It was the final game of the regular season and she is a Senior in high school. So I get out of work and decide I'll go to the game, grab something to eat along the way. I totally forget about the no meat thing cause I'm focusing on what's the best point wise at a drive thru. I hit up Taco Bell and almost order before I realize nope this isn't going to work! I just drove off, went to the game and ate when I got home. Thank god for leftovers from Oma's!!! Next week I'm gonna plan way better!

Yesterday's Weigh In...SV!

SCALE VICTORY! I had wanted to lose at least .8lbs so that I would make it to -15lbs but I lost more...1.6lbs to be exact! It was great, now I am 149lbs (peace out 150s, never again) and I have lost 15.8lbs in 6 weeks. I just need to lose .2lbs to get to my 10%!!! Oh and did I mention it was that time of the month? That truly shows that you can lose weight during that week!

After I went out and celebrated with one too many washington apple shots and today was not a good morning. Oh well, the battle continues...

Ash Wednesday

So it's that time again...lent and the question always is what are you going to give up? Well this year I'm not going to give up anything. I've been thinking about it and instead of giving up something I am going to add something to my life. With my goal this year being to get healthy and lose weight I'd like to add something to that goal that I am not currently doing. So far I'm following the Weight Watcher program, doing AT LEAST 30 minutes of cardio a day at least 6 days a week and now added last week strength training everyday...I guess it's time to add the dreaded ab workout, UGH. I hate this part of my body. I hate working on it, looking at it and making it work out (actually now that I think about it the only I like about it is feeding it lol). So for lent I will do an ab workout EVERY SINGLE DAY...I wrote it, it's got to be true!

Today I couldn't eat meat but it was dinner at Oma's house so that's pretty easy, she cooks the dinner and she's Catholic. We had haddock, asparagus, winter squash, baby carrots and salad. It was fantastic! Then I went to the gym and did 40 minutes on the elliptical and strength training (including newly added dead lifts since I liked the benefits that Jillian Michaels discussed in the last chance workout). I came home and did one of the 10 minute (really 14fyi) OnDemand ab workout with the bubbly blond that stars in it. She was annoyingly hyper but the workout seemed effective.

Tomorrow night is my weigh in. I hope that I've lost but this week I really doubt it. I followed the plan but I drank more then usual. I worked out but it was less then usual and it's that time of the month (NOT THAT THIS IS AN EXCUSE-I should still be in control) so I did have a few more snacky items then typical. We'll see, I'd REALLY like to see -.8 on that scale so I can have a total loss of 15 but if it doesn't happen this week I'll make it up and some next week!

It's snowing out :)

Today we were supposed to get a big snow storm this a.m so everything was cancelled (well everything besides my work since I don't have kids to stay home with and I answer the phones on Tuesday) but then it didn't start until around 2. So I worked the whole day but couldn't go to the gym after work because of bad roads driving home. UGH.

I came home and barely made it up my road, then I had to shovel my driveway out (I had to shovel twice already tonight and will probably go out one more time so it's not so bad in the a.m). I came in and figured since I was already changed into my gym clothes (I change at work so I have no excuse not to go, well besides terrible driving conditions lol) I'd do an exercise program from OnDemand.

I settled on The Biggest Loser (I am such a fan of these) Last Chance Workout with Jillian Michaels. It is 30 minutes long and does not include a warm up or cool down. It is circuits of cardio and strength training and I made it through the whole thing without taking any breaks. I think this is a great workout. I mean it's not as long as my workouts at the gym but I was sweating bad and breathing hard. The last circuit is really difficult and I was swearing a little at Jillian during it. I noticed that I really enjoyed the kick boxing aspects of it and I might have to look into a video that has this for a majority of the work out.

Side note: I made myself a fantastic dinner tonight and it was all leftovers!!! Yesterday I had steak tips with mushrooms and peppers and some steamed asparagus for dinner. Today I had about 3 ounces of bbq marinated steak left w/some mushrooms and peppers and then the asparagus so I reheated the asparagus as a side dish and then cut the steak into bite size pieces and reheated that with the mushrooms and peppers topped with cabot reduced fat shredded cheddar and then put it on a arnold sandwich thin...STEAK AND CHEESE w/a side of asparagus. OMG the sandwich was sooooooo good, it tasted like it was so bad for me but it wasn't. YUM, I will have to do this again.

I just gave myself and manicure and a pedicure and now it's time for dessert...a vitabrownie that is topped with walnuts, MY FAVE :)

Day off

I had today off so I got to catch up on all my stuff that I needed to take care of. I woke up late, went to the gym and did my laundry (fun stuff LOL). Tomorrow we are supposed to have a pretty big snow storm so I'm happy the only thing I have to do is go to work (well and the gym depending on the roads, I can always do a workout OnDemand).

I ate more then I should have tonight. I went over my points (that's what weeklies are for I guess) I just couldn't get a handle on it. It's that time of the month but I try really hard to not use that as an excuse. I had my dessert, a vitabrownie and skim milk but then I also had two fudgicals and then Cheerios and more milk. Dang it, should have stopped at one treat but I just couldn't help myself.

Oh well, tracked and moved on...time for bed :)

A Single Girl's Valentine's Day

Well yesterday was valentine's day lol. I'm single but I'm not a person that says "ugh this is the worst day in the world!" A few of my friends (boys too lol) and I decided that we would go out and celebrate at Chili's. I had a plan yesterday BEFORE we actually got there but it all went out the window when I got there. Everyone wanted apps so then they turn to me (why me? well I love food and I love taking charge and they all know this) with a request...Order anything just make it enough for the four of us to sit here for awhile and don't forget the loaded nachos!

So instead of my plan to have some shrimp or a special order I left my diet at the door. We had beer and more beer (bud and coors lights are $1.99 drafts there), we had loaded nachos, we had southwestern egg rolls, we had cheese fries. I ate 2 southwestern egg rolls, 2 loaded nachos and a few fork fulls of cheese fries (with more cheese then fries I might add). It was heaven and I was glad there were four of us because I could totally have gone face down in this spicy, cheesy fried goodness.

Did we stop then? NOPE, off we headed back to the local bar. They have a wii so we started playing some bowling and had a few more beverages.

So do I regret it? You know what I really don't. That kind of surprises me, I've been really hard on myself lately. I can see where I need to give myself some time to just relax and indulge a little. I mean when it comes down to it and I was presented with things that I really love to eat, I had what I wanted and was satisfied. I didn't eat til I had to go home and lay down. I guess that will have to do for now! I'm off to the gym since it's my day off I might as well watch some Days of Our Lives while walking instead of sitting on the couch! Hope you all had a great Valentine's Day :)

Haven't been home much

So I haven't been blogging this weekend. It's not because I fell off the wagon. I've just been out of the house doing stuff. I took it easy at the gym yesterday (probably because I was hungover lol) but at least I still went! I walked on the treadmill for an hour and read some of the latest book I'm into The Lovely Bones. So far it is pretty good and enough to motivate me to go back and read some more today. I did some strength training for my arms yesterday as well.

Today I lack motivation to go to the gym. I've partied a little hard this weekend but I've got to go because I am planning on going to Chili's with a bunch of people since we all have tomorrow off. Chili's changed their menu and they don't have the guiltless grill items anymore. There is some direction on the menu saying how to order certain items so they will be healthier for you but I've looked up their nutrition information and most of it is higher then the amount of points I usually eat at meals. I think I'm going to have some shrimp and steamed veggies or special order the santa fe wrap with veggies. I can't wait lol, always go with a plan!

Just a quick update, weigh in!

Last night was my weigh in, -1.6lbs! Yay me :) that is 14.2lbs and brings me down to 150.6lbs. I went out and celebrated after (typical Thursday night lol) with some adult beverages and 2 pizza! YUM.

Back OP today and I didn't overdo it last night!

Busy work day...

Today was really busy at work. I didn't even get a chance to eat my breakfast and I had to eat lunch an hour late. It felt like I was waiting around all day for people to show up just so I could get something done. In the end it all worked out but ugh, it's frustrating when you have to depend on others and things don't go smoothly.

I went to the gym after work and I really didn't want to go. I noticed today that I've thought I don't want to go a lot this week. I have pushed through the negative feeling and shown up to work out but it's been harder then the previous weeks. Today I did 45 minutes on the elliptical and really rocked it. I then did strength training for my arms (I'm doing this every other day now). Then I did a 10 minute cool down on the treadmill. That was all I could really handle, I was tired and the gym was packed.

Tonight I have to make rice crispy treats for tomorrow night. I'm putting it off but I'm going to do it in a few minutes. Tomorrow is Thursday so I weigh in at 515pm. They are having a donation breakfast tomorrow at work with all proceeds going towards children in foster care. I'm donating and not eating which is fine with me unless they have fruit then I'll have some of that. Otherwise the yogurt and fruit I bring will be just fine with me.

Long day and now it's time for The Biggest Loser

I changed the day I eat dinner at my grandmother's house this week to today because she wanted to make chicken divan and I was worried I eat too much of it on Wednesday night (the night before my weigh in) lol. We had a great dinner and I honestly don't think I did too bad. I watched and planned my points all day and then ate what I had planned for dinner.

After I went to the gym which was really busy. I'm thinking that the New Year's resolution people (myself included YAY) are really hanging in there this year. I did 30 minutes on the arc trainer then another 30 minutes on it because there wasn't an available treadmill and I didn't feel like using the elliptical tonight. I then walked for 10 minutes on the treadmill as a cool down. I'll admit my belly felt a little jiggly with a little bit more food then usual in there.

Now I'm relaxing and watching The Biggest Loser. Tonight's show should be pretty inspirational with all the Olympic athletes on it. The teams are no more and the contestants are competing individually. I'm hoping that Melissa (red) gets the boot only because she said she was disappointed in her hubby's weight loss last week after she had totally messed with hers in the previous weeks (gained 1lb and lost 1lb the following week). That just seems like bullshit to me. I hope that yellow can hang in there I really like Sunshine and her dad is very supportive which is refreshing. I also enjoy the girl that wears Purple so far, she even cheers and encourages other teams.

Day off and I feel like an ass...

I had a hard time sleeping last night and couldn't really fall asleep til around 2. It was my day off so I didn't worry about getting up early. I waited around the house before going to the gym so that I could watch Days of Our Lives while I was on the treadmill. I had a great workout at the gym 45 minutes on the elliptical, 60 minutes on the treadmill and then strength training for my arms (even though they were still sore from Saturday). I think that you need to push through the soreness, within reason, and keep up with the exercise or it's never going to get any easier.

When I got out of the gym I had a voicemail and a text from the ex (aka my friend/date sometimes/ect...I just don't know how to deal with the relationship). The text said call asap. I didn't listen to the voicemail and I just called. Well he was upset and just yelled he had been looking for someone to bring his dog to the vet but he had figured it out and then he hung up. I've got to say it set me off, I mean I didn't know the dog needed to go to the vet and I called as soon as I got the message so stop yelling. We did some nasty texting back and forth that ended with me saying "problem solved, I'll never return another text/call again."

Fast forward about an hour and I get another text asking me to call him. I say that I tried that earlier and it didn't work out so well and that I don't feel like texting. The next text from him says he just wanted to tell me the dog has died. OH MY GOD, talk about me feeling like a complete asshole :( I haven't felt so bad in such a long time. I of course called him immediately, he hadn't even gotten to say goodbye since she passed before he could get there :( he was out with one of his friends so I told him I'd talk to him later.

Well later, he is very upset obviously. And I just don't know what to say! I mean there is nothing (NOTHING) wrong with being upset and I want to be supportive but I don't know what to actually say...I guess it's just going to take time for him to not feel so bad about her passing but it's not going to go away soon. I still feel like a complete jack ass :(

Who dat??? It ain't manning lol, sweet job SAINTS!!!

meh okay, not my best but not my worst either...this is what I had:

1/4 cup buffalo chicken dip
celery sticks
3 pieces kielbasa
2 pieces cheese
1/4 cup macaroni and cheese
1 small meatball
2 tablespoons taco dip
1 small frosted brownie :(
2 small rice crispy treats made with fruity pebbles :(
5 mgd 64s

mind you this is definitely not ww diet lol but I guess it's not so terrible if I use some of my weekly points that I have not been touching what so ever in the past four weeks and I did go to the gym this morning and walked on the treadmill for an hour + I have tomorrow off so I can put in some heavy duty gym time in and the Super Bowl is on 1 time a year soooooooo I guess I'm good with it!

GO SAINTS!!!

I didn't write yesterday but I just got home too late at night and went right to bed. Yesterday was a fantastic gym day. I did 40 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes on the arc trainer, strength training for my arms and then an hour on the treadmill. I didn't plan on doing that much but I just started walking and I was reading so when I got to a good stopping point in my book it had been an hour! Then I came home and cleaned my whole house...vacuumed, dusted, washed the floors, picked everything up and put it in the right spots. After that I went out to have some beers down at the local bar. This has been a great weekend :)

Today on the other hand I woke up late (hello adult beverages lol) and dragged my ass to the gym. I only walked for an hour on the treadmill and read. No hard core work out, no hard breathing, just walking. It would have been hard to do any type of exercise that made me move my arms because they are so sore from yesterday.

I came home and made buffalo chicken dip for the big game tonight. I used reduced fat cream cheese, light blue cheese dressing and I cut up celery sticks so that I can enjoy some too! I can't wait to watch some football tonight and relax a little more. So excited about having tomorrow off :)

Great Friday night :)

I wasn't really hungry today so I didn't eat that much or that many points for breakfast and lunch. It ended up working out great though because I went out for dinner at Bugaboo Creek. I love their food and it's really hard to not order 3 beers, an app, steak, mashed potatoes, veggies and a salad. Usually when I leave there they have to roll me out, not to mention the bill is ridiculous (booze is so expensive)!

Since I knew there might be a problem I hit up the gym for 30 minutes on the arc trainer and an hour on the treadmill.

I looked the menu up at work so I could see what my options were going to be. I couldn't get the nutrition info but I set out to do my best. I had one bud light and the bourbon shrimp with double veggies (I despise restaurant rice medley or pilaf or whatever they wanna call it lol). It was FANTASTIC :) I also stole two bites of my date's prime rib, yum.

The only rant I have about it is WHY do they not offer more low fat/light/fat free options for salad dressing? I honestly do not understand it. Tonight I passed on the salad because I am so sick and tired of crummy vinaigrette dressing. I know you can get a full fat one and dip your fork in, la ti da, it's not the same. It seems like common sense to me that every salad dressing company that makes ranch or parmesan peppercorn also makes light versions SOOOOOO why don't they offer them? The demand is definitely there, I mean I can't be the only person who would want more options...oh well at least I'm not at the point that I'll be bringing my own salad dressing to the restaurant lol! That will never happen.

Weigh In day

I only lost a pound. It's fine, that's 12.2 total. I'm tired and goodnight. Keep on keeping on right?

Weigh in tomorrow...

Another week has gone by, tomorrow is the end of my fourth week so the actual end of my first month. I'm not nervous about my weigh in I just hope my work shows up on the scale. I can't wait to see what I've lost in one month! I feel like I did good all week but I didn't exercise as much as I did the previous weeks. Guess I'll have to wait and see, 515 tomorrow night :)

Today was a stressful day, work seems really long this week and I was definitely irritable. I felt like the last thing I wanted to do was go to the gym. I even drove home before going but decided sulking and sitting on the couch just wasn't worth it. I threw on my gym clothes and went to the gym. 40 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes on the arc trainer, good enough for not even wanting to go!

Now I'm home and planning to get to bed early. Hopefully tomorrow is better, since it's closer to the weekend I'm sure it will be!

Long day

Tuesdays are really long. I have to answer the phones at work and although I love what I do being the front line for all intake calls is a little aggravating. We also had an afternoon meeting so that took up til 30 minutes before it was time to go so that didn't give me a lot of time to return phone calls. After work was finally over I went to the gym. 40 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes on the arc trainer and 20 minutes on the treadmill. Then it was finally time to head home, shower, make dinner and finally relax.

My meals were really great today though. I love it when I am excited for every meal and it all tastes fantastic!

B: light and fit peach yogurt
blueberries, raspberries, strawberries

L: flat out Italian herb wrap w/kalamative olive hummus, spring mix salad and tomatoes
blueberries, raspberries, strawberries
baby carrots with light ranch dip

S: *during that long ass meeting! 90 calorie fiber one peanut butter chocolate bar

D: homemade stir fry w/orange and green peppers, mushrooms, asparagus, and shrimp w/a little light soy sauce and 1/2 cup brown rice
skim milk

Just a side note, this was my first time trying Flat Out Wraps and they are great. They are only 1 points, soft and chewy. I think that I will have to try the other flavors.

One last note, I bought the 90 calorie Fiber One bars because I love Fiber One bars but not the ummmmm side effects they have on my tummy (you know what I mean if you've eaten them lol). These taste exactly the same but I'm guessing because it is a smaller bar I don't have the same problems :) not that I'm gonna go around trying to eat more then one in a day lol!

It's been a month :)

I'm down 11.6 lbs and my new measurements are...

chest: 35.5 inches (still a D, sweet)
stomach: 35 inches
hips: 29 inches
thighs: 21 inches
biceps: 12 inches

I am very proud of myself and I'm going to keep going. I'm completely OP today even with eating my real cheeseburger (well lean ground beef, fat free cheese, lettuce and tomato on an arnold sandwich thin so not a real restaurant cheeseburger but it was FANTASTIC). I didn't go to the gym today but that was a decision that I made because I only have so much time in a day (and besides working) I had so much laundry and cleaning around the house to do so I'm good with it, I'll be back at Planet Fitness tomorrow.

Everyday I'm realizing how much happier I've been lately. I think this move to really buckle down and lose this weight, go to the gym and make healthier choices is the best decision that I've made in a long time. Everyday I find it easier to make good decisions and I'm really enjoying the results of them. I am getting a little bit of flack and being made fun of by some so called "friends" but you know what? There is NOTHING wrong with not partying every night of the week, holding yourself accountable and feeling great about yourself. I'm not going to apologize for it; if they don't like the new me then that's their problem not mine! LOL