2 days til Tampa!!!

Almost time for the first vacation with the boyfriend. I am so excited, I'll admit mostly about missing work but the trip will be great too lol. We have the whole time planned out, going to do a whole lot of nothing and sit on the beach...sounds perfect to me! It's his daughter's b-day so we will be taking her out for her 1st legal drink (I'm just being realistic).

Oh and FYI I made my packing list and the white bikini is definitely on it! Let the countdown begin!!! Already hit up the gym and packed my lunch, OP today!

Long weekend

Well my labor day weekend was pretty much a weight loss fail. I drank too much and ate even more. Parties, BBQs, and a college football opening day, ugh! Good times but bad diet times. I'm back on track today and trying to get off what I gained before my trip to Tampa. 8 MORE DAYS, I better behave!!!

Weight lifting is going great, I'm noticing a difference everyday! I already hit up the gym this morning and I packed my lunch so I'm good to go. Hopefully no one brings in any tempting treats to work today.

Ugh crappy monday

Today was a long day. Work was terrible and I'm in a bad mood, ugh. I'm going to try my hardest to not take it out on cookies and bags of chips although I REALLY would like to. At least I get to go to my bartenders meeting so I get out of the house and away from the food lol. Early to bed and hopefully I get out of this bad mood.

Thanks for the birthday wishes

I had a great day and a really fun night. I will admit I definitely went off plan starting right in the a.m with a french toast twisty bagel thing from dunking donuts. WARNING FOOD PORN in this post lol. I'd never had one but I swear they are straight from heaven, cinnamon, raisins, maple frosting, BAGEL wow!

We had wings and beer for dinner, my favorite. Well I had a few wings, 1/2 a cheeseburger and beer, the boyfriend had a "quad burger" yeah you read that right. 4 1/3lb patties with cheese. It is beyond me how he stays so fit eating that amount of meat on a regular basis. I mean he ate the other 1/2 of my burger when I couldn't finish it and 1/2 a basket of fries that he split with one of the other guys! It's was honestly amazing lol.

I have my first ever massage in about an hour, a present from the boyfriend and then I'm going to lay out by the pool for the rest of the day in (drum roll please) my new white bikini that fits perfectly! YAY ME! So far 29 is the best year ever :)

29 years old today

Today is my birthday, 29 years old :) so far it's been a great day. I'm working but I arranged my schedule to only see clients who I really like and are completely stress free (hey I can do this every once in awhile!!!). After work I'm meeting a friend for a drink then we are meeting up with boyfriends and going out and about. I didn't want to do anything fancy so we are planning on some wings and burgers lol. Tomorrow I have the day off!

I've been keeping up with the increased weight lifting and am just finishing week 3. I've noticed a difference so far especially in my arms. I can't believe it shows already there is something to be said for sticking with a routine. The boyfriend and I are enjoying the time together in the morning too.

I hope everyone has a great day :)

1st 5K

I finally took the imitative and signed up for my first 5K race. It's for a children's home in the area. When I worked for child protective services I had a bunch of kids there so I figured it would be a great reason to get off my butt and get some donations!

Now I just have to start running again LOL. I ran a mile this a.m in 11 minutes and it went very well, I could have gone further but I had already done my lifting and the boyfriend was waiting for me. I guess I'm going to have to start doing a.m and p.m workouts.

I'm both excited and nervous but I know I can do it and the race is for a great cause so now it's training time :)

week 2 increased weight lifting

So last week was my first week of increased weight lifting and I completed it BUT I was so sore on my weekend away at the beach that I could barely move LOL. We still had a great time, I just can't remember the last time that I was ever that sore. I'm noticing I'm a lot more hungry on the days that I do weight training too. I might have to start eating those activity points...

Today was the first day of the 2nd week. We did shoulders and it was reasonably easy but it is my first day back so I expect that it will get harder as my muscles get tired throughout the week. I think today was the first time I had to convince the boyfriend that we had to go to the gym. He was not wanting to get up and I had to tell him that he was supposed to be the trainer!

This is the start of the count down. We are going to Tampa on the 17th of September and I just bought a white bikini from Victoria's Secret. I want to be able to rock it when we go so I am making a promise to myself to really get back OP and hit the gym like I should be and was in the beginning.

"Lift like a man, look like a goddess"

Along with my boyfriend helping me learn how to master the free weights I started reading The New Rules of Lifting for Women by Lou Schuler w/Cassandra Forsythe, M.S. and workout programs by Alwyn Cosgrove. The book and my boyfriend seem to be right in the same set of mind, women can and should lift weights the same way that men do.

Now I'm not saying that what I have been doing isn't working because it definitely got me this far but I can already see that this is going to push me even further and give me the end result that I'm looking for. I'm hoping to really tone up and see muscle definition without flexing.

So far the week has been good. We've done back and chest, tomorrow is arms. I'll admit that I am definitely sore but I'll have the weekend to rest and we are going to the beach for a few days so I won't have to do anything but lounge around. I was a bit worried about working out with him since I really keep to myself at the gym but he has been great and so motivational.

So as of week one I am definately enjoying the program. I'm hoping to see some results by the middle of September when I go to Tampa :) Measurements to come as soon as I get the time to do them!

Haven't written in awhile

This summer has just been so busy; it's been crazy. I've been trying to spend as much time outside doing fun things with the boyfriend and my other friends, so far so good. I've got a lot of cool stuff coming up including some time at the ocean and my 29th birthday :)

In regards to WW I've been up and down .2lbs for a few weeks. It's upsetting when I gain even if it only .2lbs. The funny part about it is I'm still having to buy new clothes. I'm wearing a freakin' size 3 skirt and shorts, it's absolutely crazy. I never thought I'd ever buy anything that size. The boyfriend says that I'm gaining muscle but I get so mad when I see a bigger number on the scale that I can barely stand it. I just don't understand how you can work out so much, eat right and then gain + I've still got a little belly, ugh! When is that going away???

The boyfriend did offer to show me how to use the free weights at the gym and mixing it up might make a difference so I took him up on his offer. He's going to help me out for 4 weeks without me complaining about the scale (ummmmmm we'll see about that) and then I'll re-evaluate my situation lol.

Super tired from the weekend

This past weekend was great and relaxing but I'm still tired from it lol. The new guy and I went to my hometown (on the lake) to get away from the normal weekend craziness. We went out for dinner with my mother and her boyfriend and then spent the following day at the lake just laying around and swimming. I showed him around the small town and we had a lot of fun. I had to basically drag him out of there; he didn't want to come back home.

Sunday we went to a BBQ at my Great Aunt's house. I think it was virtually painless for him though. Everyone was really nice to him, no embarrassing comments thank god. He was really sweet about even going since I would have been a nervous wreck if the situation was the other way around.

I stayed OP all weekend but I didn't make it to the gym at all. I was back there after work today and had a great workout. I got stuck on that tv show, something like I didn't know I was pregnant...it was ridiculous and I couldn't help watching the entire thing. I ended up doing 40 minutes on the arc trainer, 25 minutes on the treadmill, an ab workout, lunges, squats and other strength training for my legs.

I'm watching tv tonight and plan on making it an early night so I can get up early for the gym. Tomorrow is my Mom's birthday and I am meeting her after work at my Oma's house for dinner. She wants to have falafal (probably didn't spell that right!) and other stuff I've never had before but I told her I would try it. Don't knock it 'til you've tried it right?

small vent, great day

So the last two weeks I've been maintaining. I mean I'm trying to lose but I can't. I've been working just as hard as usual but the new challenge is the new guy. Being in this new relationship is definitely making it harder to lose weight. He has the metabolism of a freakin' animal, it's amazing. The man can eat 4000 calories a day and lose weight. I am having to work out twice a day just to not gain, it's ridiculous.

I have to keep reminding him that I can make my own plate when we eat and that I can't eat the same things he does. I tell him I didn't lose this weight cause I hate food (I LOVE FOOD) so putting it in front of me is not fair! At BBQs he's getting me a cheeseburger and hot dog at the same time! At dinner it's a LB of steak tips, good god! Then he wants to go out for ice cream, come on!!! LOL, I've been doing my best to not give in and eat everything he gives me but I am really lucky he has two hungry dogs that want to eat everything in sight.

Anyways, end of vent. I'm doing great this week and hoping for a loss on Thursday night. I went out with my mom tonight for her birthday and we had sushi and got pedicures. It was her first one ever and she really enjoyed it. I'm glad I could spend such a good time with her :)

A work in progress

So Genie made me think yesterday...my blog is called 28, Single, Fat and I've had enough. Hmmmmmmmmm this title has served me well but times are changing that's for sure.

I'm going to be 29 years old in August.

I think my new guy would be pretty upset if he thought I was single, actually I know he would be so I don't fall into the Single catagory anymore.

The last one, now that's the hard one. Do I still see myself as fat? No I can honestly say I don't. I definately have some more lbs to lose but I'm pretty excited/happy/thrilled with my loss and my drive to make my goal. I'm glad that I got to the point that I had enough. It gave me the drive to actually do this and actually drop this weight that has made me uncomfortable with myself for so long.

Am I going to change the title??? Make a new blog??? NO, this is the way I started and this is how I felt. It's made me

great weekend and back on track

I had a great weekend but definitely ate more then I should have. I tried to even it out by going to the gym each day but I'm pretty sure it didn't! I'm back on track today though. I was OP all day long even though I made chocolate chip cookies for work for tomorrow.

I went to the gym and had a great workout. 35 minutes on the arc trainer, 20 on the elliptical and strength training for my arms. I also ACTUALLY started the 100 sit up a day challenge for 30 days. I started it last Thursday but I didn't want to say anything because I have started it and failed so many times it's ridiculous. This time I've kept it up everyday and I'm pretty happy with myself. I'm doing 40 regular crunches, 20 on each side bicycle style and then 20 leg raises in the roman chair (no not technically a sit up but it's supposed to be the best for your lower abs so it's getting done).

I've got a lot planned this weekend and I'm excited about all of it, concert on Wednesday night, MMA fights on Friday night, lobster boil at my new guy's house on Saturday. It's going to be a fun weekend.

AM workouts

Working out in the a.m is the greatest. Not only is the gym totally dead at 5:30am but now my workout is completely out of the way and I can do whatever I want after work. Plus I'm up early enough to come home and cook up some egg whites and veggies for an actual breakfast! Usually I eat yogurt at my desk at work if I remember to grab it on my way out the door. I have been getting better and better at morning workouts since it's summertime and the daylight comes earlier.

It's brutally hot up here in NH this week, NOT that I will ever complain about it since the winters are ridiculously unbearable sometimes. But since my workout is out of the way I will be poolside asap after work! If you've never tried a morning workout give it a try, it's well worth it to get some extra time at the end of your day to do whatever you want. Hope everyone has a great day :)

Great 4th of July Weekend :)

Well I haven't written since the start of my long weekend since I've just been so busy. I lost -.4lbs at my weigh in on Thursday night which I was happy with. I've been making pretty good food choices at all the cookouts that I've gone to as well so I'm hoping that once the weekend is over I can back on track completely and have a loss this coming Thursday as well.

The weekend has been great. New guy and I packed up and headed to the ocean on Saturday. We got there early so we could get a good spot and I packed a lunch which he thought was fantastic even though it was just a turkey sandwich (piled high for him of course), his favorite chips, some cut up veggies, cheese and crackers and grapes. Some men are pretty easy to please in the food department. We played a little catch with the football and we even went in the water. FYI for those who don't live in New England, the ocean doesn't really get warm in Maine lol.

Yesterday I wanted to see fireworks and he wanted to go to a BBQ at a place that had them so that worked out perfectly. We had a great time, I met some new people, it was fun.

Today I'm thinking motorcycle ride or absolutely nothing lol. It might be nice to have just a relaxing day off of nothing. Hope everyone is having a great weekend :)

WI is tonight

I'm thinking I might not lose anything, ugh. Well I guess it won't bother me too much as long as I don't gain. I definitely skipped the gym until Tuesday sooooooo I can't expect miracles right?

Last night I had kind of a crummy night. New guy and I had our first fight. Well it wasn't so much of a fight as it was he golfed all day and drank WAY (this is such an understatement) with his buddies which caused some issues. I was good with it and handled myTOTALLYSOBERself well but I did end up leaving and not participating in the drama. Got a bunch of I'm sorry calls/texts but I'll admit I'm still kind of disappointed that any of it happened.

Might be time to put the brakes on a little, not fully but just a little and spend a little more time with ME lol. Tonight I'm going to my meeting and then out for dinner by myself, maybe sushi. I really like doing this since the social worker in me will talk to just about anybody so I meet new people. Fingers crossed that I lose a little bit tonight :)

Sorry not writing as much

Wow, I am really behind in my writing...sorry.

I lost -1.2lbs last week at weigh in. I'm down -39lbs and am out of the 130s! WOOHOO 129lbs :) it feels fantastic.

I slacked off on exercise this past weekend. I did do a 2.5 mile Strawberry Festival walk on Saturday with my friend but I bailed on the gym for the entire weekend. I was back in there today though and really hit it hard, 40 minutes on the arc trainer and 20 minutes on the treadmill. I plan on getting up early and going to the gym tomorrow morning.

Now for an update on everything else. Things are going great with the new guy. His daughter was up here for a little bit longer then a week and we got along pretty well. We went to see this great rock cover band on Saturday night at a local bar and had a fantastic time singing AC DC and similar bands at the top of our lungs LOL. Just trying to get to know him and see what happens I guess. It seems like we get along pretty good though and I'm enjoying myself. Who knows what will happen?

I got an award :)

So first off, thank you so much for the award (and sorry it took me so long to post about it). The rules of this one are I need to tell 7 things about myself that people might not know...so here they are.

1. I have double jointed shoulders and I can swing my arms around my head and back while my fingers from both hands are intertwined (without letting go).

2. I love the Simpsons, it is my all time favorite tv show and I DVR all the episodes.

3. I have a cat named macey grey who has no tail because she was born that way. I like to call her chicken...why? who knows?

4. I firmly believe that women shouldn't have to go to the dump EVER, sorry if that upsets the feminists but I hate it there so much, it's just so dirty (obviously).

5. I took Chinese kempo karate for 8 years and have my brown belt.

6. I wish that cheese was zero points and I think about how great this would be frequently.

7. I firmly believe that all New England sports teams are the best teams ever, GO Pats, Red Sox, Celtics and Bruins regardless of how they play at any one given time.

Guess that's it for my 7 facts. Thanks for the award :)

weekend

My weekend went great. The weather was beautiful and I spent a lot of time at my new guy's house, having BBQs and in the pool. I got to meet his daughter which seemed to go pretty well. I'm still waiting to hear from him what she had to say when I wasn't around though, just to be sure.

This has been a good week so far besides not feeling well. It's really easy to be OP when you just don't feel good and food is kind of blah. I didn't go to the gym yesterday or today but I'm going to make and effort to get back there tomorrow morning. No dinner with Oma this week so I don't have to worry about overeating the night before weigh in.

Tonight is my favorite tv night, Hell's Kitchen :) I can not wait. Hope everyone had a great weekend.

WI results :)

So I lost -.6lbs at last night's weigh in. I don't think I'm going to see big numbers anymore though but I'm happy with -.6lbs that's for sure. I'm at 130 right now and I want to get down to 128 maybe 125 but I'm waiting to see how I look and how it feels. I want to be comfortable and not have to worry about gaining after I eat something when I pick my actual goal weight.

Last night I met my new guy's daughter but just for a minute. I'm supposed to actually meet her today or tomorrow at a cookout. I hope it goes well, I'm nervous about it. I haven't mentioned the age difference on my blog but it's pretty big, I'm 28 and he's 44, which makes his daughter 20. It hasn't been an issue until I thought about meeting his daughter when she came home from school and how she might feel. I guess I just don't want her to be uncomfortable. Hopefully it works out and we get along, fingers crossed.

My mother met him last night and they got along great. She really liked him and we all had a good time. We just met and had a drink after my weigh in and before the graduation. I didn't want to make the first time they met this big drawn out affair, just 30 minutes no pressure, have a good time. I think it was a good decision and I'm pretty happy she approves since her opinion matters a lot to me.

I'm looking forward to the weekend and will post an update when I get a chance. Everyone have a great one, get out there and do something, it's summertime :)

today is weigh in day

Today is my weigh in day (well tonight at 445 actually). I've been getting up and going to the gym in the morning and it's been fantastic. I feel great at the beginning of the day and motivated to stay OP all day long. Hopefully this shows up on the scale and I lose!

Tonight I am going to a graduation for my friend's daughter and then the after party for desserts and drinks. Hopefully I will have enough time in between my weigh in and the graduation that I can grab some dinner or I'm probably going to be stuffing my starving face with desserts lol.

Time to get ready for work. Two more days til the weekend :) it's supposed to be beautiful for the entire weekend. I can not wait!

weekend update

So I did end up going to the Red Sox game and it was unbelievable. On top of seeing Fenway for the first time it was drizzling a little so not everyone showed up and we got to sit about 8 rows back from 1st base. Then of course there was the grand slam and they played a great game (and won)...amazing!

We had a great time, cramming onto the train, going to all the resturants and bars, taking pictures and watching the game. Definately one of the best times that I've had in a long time.

Might have gone a little off plan with the number of beverages and a fenway frank (of course) but it was one day and I am back on plan today :)

Ladies Night

I had a GREAT time out last night. Our costumes were fantastic and people knew that we were dressed up like the ladies from Sex and the City. It was so much fun. I definitely have missed having just a night out with the girls. We promised that we would do it again in August but come up with something else to do, perhaps a night away.

We had a bunch of snacks and numerous pink beverages. Typically I drink light beer so this was sort of different. We went to TGIFridays and had this drink that they actually put cotton candy in! It was so tasty. I've never even had cotton candy before but I can see why people like it.

Today I'm going to Boston with the new guy. He wants to see the Red Sox but I'm not sure the weather is going to hold up for that. I hope so though since I've never been to Fenway or seen the Red Sox play, it would be so sweet (and a surprise since he just called me about it this morning!!!)! Regardless I'm sure it'll be a great day anyway :)

TGIF

I lost .5lbs at my weigh in last night :)

Today is Friday and I'm going to see Sex and the City with the girls tonight. It's going to be fun but a late night. The movie doesn't start until 9:55 so we are meeting for drinks at 6:30, dinner at 8. I think it's going to be a crazy night :)

I looked up the menu at the restaurant we are going to and there are definitely items on there that I can eat without worrying about going over my points. I'm just worried they will want to order apps instead of eating and those aren't really looking that good for me lol. It's only one night though and I know how to not go overboard.

Other than tonight I've got no plans for the weekend. Hopefully something comes up for tomorrow night and I'm pretty sure it will :) Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

This week is dragging

This week is going by so slowly. I'm looking forward to Friday night when I get to go out with the ladies to see Sex and the City 2. We are dressing up like the characters (not my idea but I'm getting used to it and have the perfect outfit so I'm getting excited about it. I'm supposed to be Carrie since I have blonde curly hair and that's who I got assigned to be lol. My dress is a TINY hot pink fitted dress with lime green underneath. I'm wearing it with some peep toe sandals that are the same color. The outfit is fantastic and didn't cost me a dime since my friend has had it in her closet for years.

Tonight I took it easy. I didn't have to go to the gym after work since I got up and went this morning (YAY ME!!!) so when I got a call to go out for dinner I could go no problem. I ate 1/2 a grilled chicken Cesar wrap and a few fries, not really that hungry today. Then came home and watched Hell's Kitchen and did a manicure and pedicure. Did my toes in hot pink to match the dress with black tips like a french manicure but with color. Never did this before but it came out pretty good actually.

Going to go to bed now so I can get up and go to the gym in the morning :)

I just don't get it

I got flowers today at work from the new guy that I've gone out with a few times. They are really beautiful, slightly orange maybe coral long stem roses. Orange is even my favorite color and I'll admit I did not expect them whatsoever. So when they got there you'd think I would be just so happy, I mean I would think that, but nope I had to leave the office because it made me cry (not a lot but my eyes definately filled up with them). I don't know if it was just so touching or if I freaked out a little. I just don't know why I can't handle this attention? It blows my mind.

I didn't make it to the gym this morning but I did go after work. I did 35 minutes on the arc trainer and then strength training for my legs. It felt great but tomorrow I'm going to try to get up in the morning and go. I did my laundry tonight so hopefully I can get home early and just relax after work.

weigh in results and the weekend

I didn't get time to write after my weigh in on Thursday but I was down -1.8lbs which makes a grand total so far of -34lbs! Very exciting, I only have 2lbs to go until I reach my goal weight of 128. Now I'm thinking that I might be able to lower my weight a little more, I definately never thought I'd actually be in the 120s :)

This weekend was pretty good, not as exciting as last weekend but fun all the same. On Friday night I went out for dinner, and then out for a few beverages with some friends.

Saturday night I worked for my first non-training shift as a bartender. It was a pretty easy function and I was working with one of my friends so we had a fun time. I did forget to get something to eat before it and ended up snacking on a few brownies but lesson learned, eat before work. And really I had gone to the gym in the morning so not too much damage done there.

Sunday I didn't do too much just went to the gym and then relaxed. It's bed time now and I'm ready to attempt to get up and go to the gym tomorrow morning before work.

Back on schedule

Well it's not like I've totally been off plan but I have been off my regular schedule since I haven't been able to work out. I started going back to the gym on Saturday and finally and have kept it up since. Today was my hard day at work and it was super busy.

After work I went to my Oma's house for dinner since she is going out tomorrow night (when I usually go). She made a fantastic dinner of shake and bake chicken, brussels sprouts, sugar snap peas and salad. It was great.

Right after that I went to the gym (couldn't get up this morning to go if my life depended on it lol) and I did 40 minutes on the arc trainer, 20 minutes running on the treadmill and then strength training for my arms. It felt great. It was my first regular work out since I got my tattoo done.

Now it's time for my all time favorite reality show, Hell's Kitchen. It is so exciting. I love Chef Gordon Ramsey no matter how much of a jerk he can be. I can't wait to pick my favorites :)

Memorial Day Weekend

This weekend was so fantastic, I had such a great time. The weather was beautiful and one more day off, sweet! On Friday night I had a date, it was nice...different since I'm pretty rusty in the dating department. We went to an Italian restaurant on the ocean, the food wasn't anything special but the atmosphere was really fun (BYOB which is definitely strange) and I had a good time. I learned I'm either really bad at taking compliments or not that used to receiving them so they embarrass me. I'm not sure which one it is but I've probably got to work on just saying thank you.

Saturday I went on a long motorcycle ride. It was so nice out and it was the best day out of the weekend. I'm getting more comfortable on the back of a bike and this bike was a way easier ride (couldn't feel the bumps as much). We rode all day long and went to a huge biker bar with a great cover band. I can't wait 'til the next ride!

Sunday I went to a bbq at a friend's house. Another beautiful day outside and I met a bunch of new people. I brought fruit salad and a regular salad and all the kids ate the entire fruit salad in 20 minutes, way before they even touched the cookies and brownies other's had brought. Pretty easy to stay OP when other's around you are eating the same thing and everyone is enjoying it :)

Today was a day to relax. I laid outside and went for a swim in the pool (well I jumped in and swam to the shallow end then I got out immediately). The water was cold and my tattoo on my foot is still in the healing process so I'm not really supposed to be submerging it.

All in all a great weekend. I started back up at the gym on Saturday even though my foot is giving me a little bit of an issue. I'm planning on going to be soon and getting up and going to the gym in the a.m. Hope everyone had a great weekend too.

WI results

So last night I had my weigh in which I had even intention of skipping but that would make me a hypocrite since I always say you have to (wo)man up and face the music. When I weighed myself on Monday when I got back from my vacation I was up 3lbs, AND I could not work out this week because of the foot tattoo sooooooo I did not think last night's weigh in was going to go well at all.

I was of course WRONG, down .2lbs (meaning I lost the 3lbs I was up + another .2lbs)! I mean I was OP the entire week, had to be with the conditions I was facing but I'm just so happy it worked out.

This weekend is Memorial Day Weekend, which means a long weekend filled with outside, motor cycle rides, the pool, beer and the grill. I'm looking forward to it and nervous about it all at the same time. I'm starting back up at the gym tomorrow morning so that should be helpful, other than that I'm just going to try to continue to make good choices and do the best I can. Good Luck everyone and have a great weekend :)

Back from vacation

It was fantastic. I went to Houston, Texas to stay with my dad for a week. It was great. He just moved into his new house that he built and it is amazing. I spent a lot of time out by the pool (and in it). We went to see Jimmy Buffett (who is my favorite singer by far), he did not disappoint! I got to go shopping and get some new clothes that actually fit which was so great :) AND we went to a tattoo expo and I got a new tattoo on the top of my foot that says "To Thine Own Self Be True" which I absolutely love! All in all it was a great vacation.

WW wise, I did really well. I went running 3 out of the 6 days and I swam in the pool everyday. I made my dad go to the grocery store and get me fruit and yogurt for breakfast, we were generally busy through lunchtime and ended up eating dinner out every night but I made good decisions like shrimp and more shrimp lol.

On the way home I got stuck in the Newark, NJ airport for 10 freakin' hours. NO thanks to Continental airlines who wouldn't even give me a free lunch coupon :( for all my trouble. That was probably the only day I ate badly, beer, quesadilla, a burger, fries, Ben and Jerry's peanut brittle ice cream...I was bored out of my damn mind and angry.

So on my vacation I gained 3lbs. I'm pretty sure it mostly had to do with the airport but I'm not making excuses. I ate it, I'll get it off. I've been OP since I got home. I can't really work out since I can't wear a sock or sneaker cause of the tattoo but I'll be back to that by Saturday morning.

Best Weekend so far this year and WI results

So my weigh in was last Thursday but I didn't have a chance to write since then. I lost -3lbs!!!! I'm down 32lbs since January, it's totally crazy and it feels fantastic.

This weekend I had to work a function at the bar, got to go out for dinner at this delicious restaurant, volunteered to serve breakfast at the Legion and went on my first motor cycle poker run. Everything was so great!

The poker run was definitely the most exciting and best time I have had in a long time! It was sponsored by the legion riders and we made 5 stops. The police escort you from town to town and you feel like a movie star with the traffic stopped and being able to go right through red lights. I rode with one of the members and it was so fun. I had only been on a bike ride around a building so it was very exciting to go on one for a 4 hour ride. I was a little nervous I wouldn't like it but even though I was a little scared at the beginning I ended up loving it.

Tomorrow I head to Texas to see my dad (and Jimmy Buffett). I don't know how much I'll be able to write but I will when I have free time. No weigh in this week since I won't be home but I'm just going to try to stay on track and do the best I can, it's vacation after all but I did pack my workout clothes and a Biggest Loser DVD :)

Definately back in the swing of things :)

Today was even better then yesterday. I'm finally feeling like myself again after last weekend. I was completely OP today and had dinner at Oma's. It was so freakin' good, shake and bake pork chops, corn on the cob, broccoli, carrots, salad and roasted potatoes. She makes a lot but she knows most of it goes to leftovers lol. The only thing I have to do tonight is NOT eat it! Tomorrow is weigh in and I've done so good since Monday that I'm not going to let the leftovers ruin me.

I went to the gym for a LONG workout today. I did 35 minutes on the arc trainer, 35 minutes running on the treadmill and then strength training for both my arms and legs. It felt great. I didn't get up and go this morning so I made up for it by doing double time tonight. Tomorrow I am definitely going in the a.m since it's weigh in day and I don't like to go at night that day.

I am excited about this up coming weekend, I'm working another function on Saturday night and it's supposed to be nice out all weekend so hopefully I can do some stuff outside. Time to relax, watch some tv and do my nails (if I feel like being productive that is LOL).

appearing to be back on track

Today was a better day, a little stressful at work and busy but good I guess. I was OP and went to the gym. I couldn't stay as long as I wanted to because I had an auxiliary meeting to get to but I still went.

I'm feeling better health wise and emotionally. Kind of still a little off but I'm looking forward to finishing this week up and then going on my vacation. A little break from the regular will hopefully be just what I need :)

The Biggest Loser is on tonight so I'm watching that and looking for inspiration. I want to get up early and go to the gym tomorrow since I have dinner at Oma's tomorrow night. Guess that's all I've got for an update, have a great night.

new week fresh start

I really checked out this past weekend. No gym, no real food, just booze. I didn't get up til around 10 or 11 o'clock each day, by then I've usually been in the gym for an hour! Not this weekend...I just felt so bad, too bad to really do much of anything except booze it up with friends and pretend everything was alright.

I'll admit I didn't have a terrible time while I was out it was fun but it was just filling empty time so I wouldn't have to think about things. Today I woke up telling myself I was going to snap out of it, no more funk. I think I've done pretty well. I'm back to eating and being OP and I hit up the gym for a hell of a workout tonight (35 minutes on the arc trainer, 35 minutes running on the treadmill and then strength training for my legs). It felt great.

I'm still a little off emotionally but I think I can get back into my typical personality and my routine. After all I only have a week until I get to go to Texas to see Jimmy Buffett! Hope that you all have a good week :)

ugh i'm stressed out

I'm sick, I'm tired, it's that time of the month, I'm sad, it's just everything. UGH. I try to be a pretty positive person but last night and today were really hard for me. Last night I decided to weigh in a day early and then go out (lost .4lbs). I ended up having a great night until I went out with one of my guy friends to a restaurant/bar to see other friends (one happens to be the ex). Well that should have gone well but no, he was drunk and ridiculous. My friend wanted to give him a ride home so we all had to get in the same car together where he belittled me the entire way home, swearing at me and calling me names. I snapped, I'm not releasing the gory details but I lost my mind. After when I finally got home I got a million harassing phone calls with him trying to locate the other friend saying we were together and sleeping together. It was all too much, I binged on an entire box of Cheerios and some Doritos.

So that brings us to today, the day of regret. I can't control what he chooses to do or act like but I'm so upset with the way that I allowed him to get under my skin and turn me into a person that I am not. I'm disgusted with myself and so disappointed. I didn't make it through the day at work, I luckily (yeah right) am actually sick so I had to go to the doctors but I left 3 hours before the actual appointment.

I did go to the gym and really worked it since working out felt fantastic. I did 35 minutes on the elliptical and then 30 minutes running (the entire time). I have to say it felt great to run. My iPod was cranked with rock music and running was just I don't easier then usual.

I've got a few calls/text from the ex today and spoke with him once. He said he was sorry and wanted me to forgive him. I just think it's best to not speak with him. I've said this so many times and I have never followed through with it. But I just HATE the person that he can turn me into. I do not want to be like that and I will not be like that.

Better day today :)

So my sinus headache is still around, maybe it's allergies? Who knows? But besides that today went great. Work, ran home and took the laundry in before it rained and then off to the gym. I was tired today so I slacked at the gym 30 minutes on the arc trainer (but just phoning it in, no real work LOL) then strength training for my arms.

I got offered a job bartending functions at the legion where i'm a member last week but wasn't supposed to start until June but a guy stopped by my house and asked me to start working on Friday night. Apparently some frat rented the hall for their semi-formal, that should be interesting LOL. I've been a bartender before at a little dive bar (so this is very similar) but that was just on Sundays during the day, things got busy during the Patriot's games but besides that it was pretty dead. I'm hoping this is going to be more fun and I can make some extra money :)

Tomorrow is Cinco de Mayo...I usually would be boozing it up hardcore and eating my weight in Mexican food, this year not so much. I haven't decided if I'll go out or not but most likely I'll just wait until Thursday like I usually do.

FOOD FIND: just tried the Quaker Mini Rice Cakes Creme Bruele flavor (never really ate rice cakes before) and they are fantastic. You get 7 of them for a point and they are really good, very sweet.

Ugh what a day!

Today was SO LONG. Work sucked and I had to work with someone that well we'll just say we do not get along at all. Made it through that, off to the gym (pizza day at the gym UGH) 35 minutes on the arc trainer and strength training for legs. Grabbed two pieces of pizza and brought them to my Oma's house so she could have them for lunch tomorrow.

Got home and I have a flying ant problem (day two of it). It is ridiculous, like being in a horror movie, they are EVERYWHERE inside the house. My landlord sprayed outside and killed 'em inside. ICK ICK ICK. My friends had put up a close line for me and just to be funny wrote on the window of my door with one of those pens for car windows...well my windows aren't normal to my house sooooooooooooooooooo I had to scrub that off with paint thinner. AWESOME! THEN it was time to go to the laundry mat...while my laundry is going I've do my ab routine (no not at the laundry mat, I went home and did it!). 2 and 1/2 hours later my clothes are put away, bed is made and I've showered. It's 8:47 and I'm skipping dinner, I'm too tired to make anything and I have a sinus cold that hurts so much my teeth hurt.

Today sucked! Bring on tomorrow :)

I was kinda bad this weekend

Oh well it happens, we had BEAUTIFUL weather in NH this weekend. I went to a bbq and had a cheeseburger and then still ate 3 pieces of pizza and a brownie later. Then on Sunday I drove to the gym and then turned around and left, NO WORK OUT. Oh well sometimes you just don't feel it, ya know?

Tomorrow is a fresh start, gym and completely OP :)

WI results and a quick note

Just a quick note since I'm meeting friends for dinner. Weigh in was last night, down -1lb! SWEET :) I'm not sure how many whole pound losses I'll be seeing as I get closer to goal. I'm at 136.2lbs right now (start 164.6) so I'm doing great still and my goal is currently at 130 but I'll have to see what it feels like when I get there.

Side note: Went to Subway to try their new breakfast english muffin sandwich this morning and I thought it was fantastic. I usually have a 2 point breakfast of yogurt and fruit so this was more then I generally eat but only 3 points what a deal!

I had the western egg white w/no onions and instead of southwestern sauce I had hot sauce. It was fantastic for 2 bucks! I will definately be eating these every once in awhile.

Good day today

Today was great. Well tonight wasn't, I ran out of oil and it's freezing in NH but...I have a space heater for the night so it'll be bearable. The rest of the day was great! Went to work and then had enough time to go to the gym before I met up with my friend to go get a pedicure. We went to a new place and it was so nice. I couldn't have a glass of wine or anything but they did have some snacks that they served that I could actually eat! Whole wheat crackers and laughing cow Swiss cheese, sweet! I picked a hot pink/fuchsia color and it looks fantastic.

After that we went to Applebees and I had the tilapia with double veggies. Very good. I had a great time catching up and gossiping with a friend who I don't get to see often because she had a baby and we no longer work together.

I've got to keep this short since it's kinda cold in here and I want to get in my room where the heat is LOL. Tomorrow is my weigh in day and I'm getting up and going to the gym in the a.m. Have a great night everyone and thanks for the support yesterday...fyi I didn't go for the Doritos last night :)

Today was a rough day...

I'm just pissy today and I heard some bad news that someone is going around saying bad stuff about me so that's hard. I try to ignore these things because I don't honestly care what most people think about me but sometimes it's hard when you first hear it.

I did well and didn't reach for Doritos or anything like that. I even went to the gym (only 30 minutes on the arc trainer and strength training for my arms) but I'll admit I didn't want anything to do with being there.

Tonight might be hard since I'm home already (couldn't bring myself to go to the laundry mat) and I'm just going to watch tv all night. Hopefully The Biggest Loser and Dancing with the Stars motivates me instead of depresses me further and then I make some bad decisions. Just have to keep telling myself...weigh in day is Thursday night and tomorrow I'm getting a pedicure which will be relaxing food will stress me out more!

daily update

Just a quick note since I already wrote today to tell you all that I was OP today. I went to the gym after work and it's so funny to see the difference in what I buy now compared to what I used to buy. Everything has to go in the fridge since it's all fresh foods. I only had one box of cheerios, a can of black beans and a can of black olives to put in the cabinet. The rest was fruits, veggies, dairy and fish/shrimp.

Tonight I made a fantastic dinner...sauted shrimp w/jalapenos, cumin and rinsed black beans. Fresh greens in a bowl, topped with tomatoes, black olives and a sprinkle (1/8 cup) reduced fat Cabot cheddar. Shrimp/black beans on top with homemade guacamole on top. I made a dressing with fat free sour cream and salsa. FANTASTIC :) sometimes I can't even believe I come up with these things. It was the best "southwestern salad" I've ever had and very low in points.

Went to the gym tonight. 35 minutes on the arc trainer, 15 minutes on the treadmill (and a 15 minute walk outside during my break at work). Then I came home and did the ab exercises for the Glamour 4 Week challenge. This is my new challenge I am taking on...it's to get bikini ready and flatten that belly. We will see how well it works.

Side note: On Friday night I bit the bullet and went to Victoria's Secret to get measured. I was really thinking my girls were shrinking and I'll admit I was pretty upset about it! I really love my Ds lol, I don't want them to go anywhere. Well when I got measure boy was I surprised...from a 38D to a 34DD! Nothing wrong with that!

diet vs. life changes

I was on the WW message boards today and someone posted a question regarding how your eating habits have changed since you started weight watchers. It really got me thinking…I’ve done WW three times in my life and lost weight each time but I’ve always gained it back. This will be my challenge when I start doing maintenance after I meet my goal. Then I started to think about what really was different THIS time.

Weight Watchers tells you this is not a diet program; it is a lifestyle change. I used to think “yeah right, then why am I always hungry and trying to figure out how to make my favorite foods decrease in fat and increase in fiber?” But now I think that I’ve actually come to realize that this is in fact a lifestyle change for me.

In the past when I have worked the program I have basically controlled my points to be able to eat junk and drink a ton of booze later that day. This time I have figured out that junk makes me feel gross after and it’s just not worth it (same with huge amounts of booze). Not that I don’t indulge because I definitely still eat some loaded nachos, a burger or ice cream and drink some adult beverages. But the amount that I eat has gone way down and my beer choice has switched to MGD64.

In the past it would bother me to go out to eat and not be able to get the same things as other people. I thought it would be a cold day in hell when I’d pass up a quesadilla burger with fries and a Brewtus Bud Light at Applebees for the Cajun tilapia with double veggies and a skinny margarita!!!! Now I order a healthier dish and I actually enjoy it. It seems to me that food even tastes better when you are in control about what you are eating.

I used to work out so that I could eat/drink more later that night. Now I work out because I feel fantastic after. I love being on that elliptical and thinking to myself, you can do anything for two minutes...just two more minutes...see you did it…now do it again...you can do anything for two more minutes right??? You bet I can, all of a sudden it’s been 30.

I’m walking on the treadmill and a song will come on the IPod, "Someone call 911...shorty's fire burning on the treadmill" well that's not exactly how the song goes but that's what i hear...and I can’t walk anymore, it’s too easy, I start running. RUNNING? Wait, I can’t run…no that was the old me, the new me…well that skinny biatch, she can run!!

I’ve got to say the obvious physical changes are great to see and the comments I get from people that I know make me feel fantastic. When I started in January I literally hated the way I looked, I hated the choices I made and I hated myself. After 4 months I finally feel in control of my eating, my decisions and my life. I guess the long story short is I started a diet that caused many wonderful life style changes and since I’m finally in charge it’s up to me to keep it up. Best thing is, there’s no doubt in my mind that I can and will do it :)

WI results and the weekend...

Haven't posted since before my weigh in on Thursday night. I lost .4lbs which I consider pretty good since I lost a point the week before and didn't make the best decisions last weekend.

This weekend my dad came to visit. It was nice to see him and spend time with him. I'm going to see him in May and I can't wait. What a great time to go on vacation and Texas should be nice and hot by then :)

We went out to eat quite a bit and I made some good choices (sweet potato veggie burger) and some bad choice (hello seafood nachos LOL). All in all I think I did good and it's not everyday I get to see him and go out to eat.

I'm so tired tonight so this will be a short post. Tomorrow is the start of a new week. Off to the gym in the a.m and then probably again after work since I'll have time. I'd like to have a decent loss on Thursday so I'll be trying to be completely OP all week long. Good night :)

A little nervous about weigh in tomorrow but it is what it is

It's been a busy week at work but I've done really good eating and exercising. I tried to get up this morning and go to the gym but that didn't happen so I went after work. I had extra time before dinner at Oma's so I did 40 minutes on the arc trainer and 20 minutes on the elliptical then strength training for my arms and squats, dead lifts, and some other machines for my legs. I felt absolutely fantastic after it.

Then I went to Oma's for dinner and she did a great job. Ham, cauliflower, green beans, winter squash and salad. Very weight watcher friendly so it was perfect.

Now I'm home for the night, time to cut up some strawberries for the rest of the week and watch some tv. I've got to get to bed early because I AM GETTING UP TOMORROW AND GOING TO THE GYM IN THE MORNING...it actually happens when I write down in this blog so I'm going to do that when I definitely want to make sure I do it! LOL.

Weigh in tomorrow night. I dropped a point last week and binged on Sunday so hopefully everything evens out and I lose. Guess I'll just have to wait and see and be completely OP tomorrow. Good night :)

Back on track today

Well even though today was a Monday and very busy I had a great day. Way better then yesterday. I'm back feeling like myself and even enjoyed work although the phone calls did not stop all day long! This morning I even snuck out and went for a 15 minute long walk.

I stayed OP all day long and hit the gym up after work for a great workout. 35 minutes on the arc trainer, 15 minutes on the elliptical, strength training for my arms and then a 10 minute cool down walking on the treadmill. It felt great :)

I'm finally sitting down now to watch Dancing with the Stars after a long night at the Laundromat. I was just trying to get it all out of the way so tomorrow I can work, go to the gym and then head home and do nothing!!!

Side Note: For dinner tonight I tried Jennie O Turkey Kielbasa...cooked it kind of like a stir fry with yellow and red peppers, mushrooms, asparagus and a few cherry tomatoes (added at the very end). Served it over couscous. FYI-Jennie O Turkey Kielbasa is SUPER LOW in points, check it out if you like that kind of thing. I thought it was so good I made enough for leftovers for tomorrow night. Yay, now I only have to heat something up tomorrow, it's going to be great!

Off day, just not feeling myself today

Ugh today was just one of those days. I just don't don't feel like my typical self. I am really tired and feel kind of depressed. I'm not sure why but I feel a little lonely and like I should have stayed in my pj's all day long.

It's really hard to not reach for comfort foods when I'm feeling down. I've made some choices that are not OP today and unfortunately that makes me feel a little bit worse. I volunteered this morning and served breakfast at the American Legion this morning. It was really hard to smell all that delicious bacon, sausage and pancakes without snacking. I was able to hold off until the end of it and then I had my complimentary breakfast, one egg, one sausage, and 1/2 a cup of home fries (not too bad there, I mean it could have been a disaster and I think I made good choices).

Then I retreated back to my house to watch tv in my pjs. My friend called and I went out for Sushi for dinner. We had some sushi, sashimi and an egg roll. Then even though I was full I went to Friendly's and got a happy ending sundae (chocolate almond chip ice cream with peanut butter sauce and whipped cream). Now I'm more then full, with my belly hurting, back at home, in my pj's, still feeling sad.

Ugh I guess everyone has these days obviously. I just feel like I've been getting all these compliments lately and I feel like I look so much better but it's so much work and it takes up so much time. I have less time to spend time with people, less time to socialize and more time to myself which can be really lonely. Well tomorrow is another day and a fresh start on another week; I bet I'll feel better after a good night's sleep anyway.

SV and a rainy weekend

I haven't written since the night before my weigh in, whoops! My weigh in was on Thursday night and I was down -1.6lbs. That make my weight 137.2 (started at 164.6 on January 4, 2010). My total loss so far is 27.something. Yay me!

After my weigh in wanted to go out and have a HUGE burger. So I went to Uno and got a burger with Cabot cheddar, mushrooms, guacamole, lettuce and tomatoes AND the fries that went along with it! I was all set to totally go to town but boy was I surprised when I could only eat 1/2 that dang burger! I mean what the hell? I used to eat appetizers, a meal and sometimes dessert and now I can't even get a whole restaurant size burger down! Ridiculous! I guess it's good in the long run and I left the other half there since I didn't want to have 2 non OP days.

It's been rainy and cold the last few days here, such a disappointing change from the kick ass sunny weather we've been having. Last night I went out for some adult beverages and I wore a fitted flannel shirt that I bought back in December even though there was no chance it would fit then. I went from looking the like incredible hulk after he becomes mad to it fitting perfectly :) it felt so great and I got lots of compliments.

Made the best of the rainy morning and I hit up the gym for a nice long workout. 35 minutes on the arc trainer, 20 minutes on the elliptical, strength training for my arms and then a 15 minute walk on the treadmill to cool down. Today is a good day :) enjoy the weekend!

Another late day...

Ugh, just sitting down and I missed the first 30 minutes of the Biggest Loser! Oh well. Just a short update for today since I want to relax a little.

Went to the gym of course...35 minutes on the arc trainer, 15 minutes on the elliptical and 10 minutes on the treadmill. That's the 60 minutes that I was striving for so yay me!

I couldn't make what I wanted for dinner tonight so I had the same thing I had last night, sort of boring :( but it was all within my points so that is okay.

I WILL GET UP TOMORROW AM AND GO TO THE GYM SO I DON'T HAVE TO GO AFTER DINNER AT OMA'S...that is my promise to myself for tomorrow.

Late night, finally sitting down

Ugh it makes me mad when I don't get to sit down to dinner until 8pm. A few nights a week this tends to be the case. It seems like I work, speed to the gym, try to get at least an hour in there and then speed home to do whatever work around the house that needs to be done. Tonight it was the laundry which involves going to the laundry mat. Luckily for me it is right down the road, but it definitely makes for a long night.

I've decided this week that I am going to challenge myself to 60 minutes of cardio a day and toning moves. I'm also bringing back my strength training exercises. I took a break on these last week when I was doing the Self Challenge. I read in Fitness Magazine on Friday that if you are looking to tone then you shouldn't rest in between sets and if you do they should be very short breaks. Now I'm not sure if I believe this or not but I'm going to try it during April and see if it makes a difference in my measurements next month.

I seem to be doing okay with 19 points a day. I was able to stick to my plan this weekend even though I went out once, seafood is definitely a great option and I've been eating a ton of it lately. Guess I've got a plan for the rest of the week, hopefully it all goes great :)

lazy day

I had such a lazy day today. I'll admit I was hungover today so I didn't get up til 1130 and that was only because the dump was closing and I had to get there before that happened. Then I dragged my lazy butt to the gym. I couldn't workout like I wanted to because my head was pounding so badly but I still walked on the treadmill for 45 minutes.

Then I laid around for awhile and watched some junk tv. I finally got myself showered and dressed and went off to do some shopping. How the hell does one bag of stuff at Walmart cost $30? LOL, I mean mouth wash, razors and other must haves are ridiculously expensive! I bought some new 5lb dumbbells for my workouts. And a new bright yellow tank top at TJMaxx.

My friend called me and since I was out I offered to pick him up some food. He wanted some burgers so I hit the Burger King drive thru. Hello temptation! I hadn't eaten all day since I didn't feel too great so now I was just about starving. I get there and the freakin' drive thru is broken. Damn it, now I had to go in and smell it while I ordered for him! Oh I definitely thought about how great a rodeo burger and mozzarella sticks would be but I didn't give in. I ordered up his three whopper jr's and a small fry and only stole 3 fries :)

Then I ordered Chinese food take out. Are you thinking what, how is that any better? Well some of it is! At the place close to me they have healthy options that REALLY actually are healthy. They don't use oil and the sauce is given to you on the side. So I had steamed shrimp with veggies and it came with white rice. I got home and used my new WW Scale (just broke down and bought it Thursday at the meeting) to measure the rice out. Just a side note: this scale is FANTASTIC you can weigh items OR get the points for them so I could measure out 2 points of rice! Then I added the amount of sauce that was good for me, fyi a little goes a long way. It was great, I'm glad I went with that instead of the burger :)

Weigh In Results...and more positive news!!!

So I didn't get around to writing the other day after my weigh in...but the results are in:

-1.2lbs!!! SWEET!!!

What does that mean? Peace out 140s! I'll never see you again. What else does that mean? Well my BMI is FINALLY in the healthy category!! I started in the obese category and have made it to healthy, life is good :) And finally I have lost a total 25.6lbs!!! So I also got my -25lb charm for my key chain! What a great weigh in!!!

The only bad news...ugh, dropped a point. I'm down to 19 :( booooooooo LOL, who would think 1 point would make that big of the difference? We'll see how this next week goes...

Tomorrow is weigh in

I am excited. I've done the best I possibly could this week. I hit the gym everyday and I've been doing that Self Challenge exactly as it says which is a LOT of cardio. Today was supposed to be a "rest day" but with my weigh in tomorrow I'm going to use that as a rest day and I skipped to day 4 today.

Today was 30 minutes in zone 2...I did the arc trainer on level 3. Then 30 minutes, 1 in zone 3, 2 minutes in zone 2 then repeat...I did the arc trainer on manual with a resistance of 30 for zone 3 and 15 for zone 2. Very good workout.

I've also been completely OP with my eating so tomorrow night's weigh in should be fantastic. Tonight I had tilapia w/grilled red peppers, mushrooms, jalapeno pepper, topped with peach salsa and some homemade guacamole. All this plus a side of steamed broccoli...fyi very low in points for this meal and it was fantastic.

Time to relax and watch some tv. I'd like to get up early since the weather is going to be beautiful tomorrow and go for a walk before work.

Self Challenge Day 2

So I've been doing the 7 day challenge in this month's Self magazine for two days now. The first day caused some serious blisters on my left foot but didn't deter me from working out today. I just had to go about it differently, meaning...no running on the treadmill.

Day 2 looks like this...you can pick any cardio you just need to do it in different zones.

10 minutes in zone 1...which for me was the treadmill on an incline at 3.6
10 minutes in zone 2...the arc trainer on level 3
10 minutes, repeating 1 min in zone 2, 1 min in zone 3...elliptical at different intesities

Then you repeat each 10 minute session. I made it through it. I think it was nice to change machines and do different things, it definately kept my interest longer.

After you do all that there are 8 toning exercises that you do 12 times then repeat. I've been doing these since Saturday and I'm getting used to them. I only have 3lb dumbbells so I might need to pick up some 5lbs ones on payday.

All in all I'm really enjoying this challenge so far. Tomorrow is supposed to be a rest day but I'm not resting, I'm just going to go on to Thursday's plan. My weigh in is on Thursday and I'll use that as my rest day instead.

Now it's time for the Biggest Loser, ugh I hope red goes home. I've got to switch back and forth between this and Dancing with the Stars (I'm sorry but I love Pam Anderson, I don't care what anyone says, she's fab and she knows it, I love that about her). Have a great night :)

It's measurement update time...

So I started this weight loss journey (for the third, but successful FINALLY time) on January 4th 2010. I took my measurements then and then took them again on March 2nd, 2 months later. Today is April 5th so it's been 3 months and it's time to take them again...

Jan. 4th-----March 4th-----TODAY

chest: 38D----33.5inches still D-----32C inches
stomach: 37 inches-----34 inches-----32.5 inches
hips: 42 inches-----37.5 inches-----37 inches
thighs: 22 inches-----20.5 inches-----20 inches
arms: 12 inches-----11 inches------10 inches

I'm still losing inches!!!

In January I wore a size 13 pants, in March I wore a 9 and the other day I just bought my first size 6 shorts!!! YAY!

I started at 22 points a day in weight watchers and am down to 20 points, most likely going to drop to 19 on Thursday after weigh in. The reality of all this is simple...weight watchers works if YOU work the program.

Now a little bit about today. I've been looking for new exercise plans since I've been getting a little bored. I opened this month's Self magazine and found a plan that I think is totally doable. It's only a week long so I'm trying it out this week.

Basically it has three zones of cardio that you do for different intervals. Today was day one so I decided I would use the following:

zone 1: walking at a 3.8
zone 2: running at a 4.5-4.8
zone 3: running at a 6

The program says you do 10 minutes in zone 1, 10 minutes in zone 2, then 20 minutes (1 minute in zone 3, 3 minutes in zone 2, repeat til 20 minutes is up), then 10 minutes in zone 2 then finish with 10 minutes in zone 1. Total of 60 minutes...fyi it was hard, I am beat and I have blisters on my feet :( but I DID IT. I think the only way that I made it through it is because it was broken down to change the times and I kept repeating to myself "you can do anything for a minute, anything."

Then there are 8 more toning exercises that you do and all you need is a set of dumbbells. So I went home and completed those. I'll admit I'm not looking forward to tomorrow but I am going to do it. This time I think I'll have to use the elliptical though because my feet are really hurting.

Now it's time to relax :)

What a great weekend :)

The weather was so fantastic here in NH this weekend. It was absolutely perfect and I did things outside as much as I possibly could. I went to the gym both days and I got in a little extra activity by hitting some golf balls at the driving range today, you know anything to be outside!!!

On Saturday morning I had to go shopping for some new clothes after I had a mini breakdown on Friday night since I couldn't find a freakin' thing to wear that looked even halfway decent. I'm so proud of myself for losing the weight but I have nothing to wear that fits. The clothes I had look absolutely ridiculous and make me look heavier then I am. So off to Old Navy I went and purchased small tops and size 6 shorts...yup you read that right!!! SWEET :) Next Friday is payday and I will be buying some more stuff, after I spend this week getting rid of EVERYTHING that doesn't fit!

Today was Easter so I went to Oma's house of dinner. Typical stuff and kind of easy to make choice since Oma really does a good job with the amount of veggie options. Ham, asparagus, sugar snap peas, winter squash and a HEAVENLY crusty bread roll. I passed on the apple crisp but did have one small scoop of the double churn edy's french vanilla. After dinner I wanted to get outside so I went to the driving range and hit some golf balls.

I wish every weekend could be this great :)

Weight in results...

-.8lbs. It's a loss right? Brings me to a total of -24.4lbs and I currently weigh 140.4lbs...I still wish it was under 140 but that will be next week!

I went out for dinner and had fried seafood, not the best choice but oh well. I wanted it, haven't had it in forever and it was delicious. Back OP and on track tomorrow :)

Quick post, I'm tired...

Today I had a dentist appointment and I lied about the amount of time I floss my teeth. Why do I do this? Who knows? It just is easier then having to listen to a lecture. This time she really believed me and told me my teeth look fantastic, sweet! Must be the new electric toothbrush I'm using religiously.

Other than that not a lot happened today. I'm sore from yesterday, lunges really do a number on my legs. I can feel them so much the following day. I went to the gym and did 32 minutes on the arc trainer (tried the interval program today, UGH not a good day to try something new but I made it through it). Then I just walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes.

I didn't wake up early enough for the gym this morning, I'll blame the rain again. But I'm going to try to tomorrow morning so I won't have to go after work. Tomorrow we are supposed to see the sun (and for the entire weekend, YAY) so hopefully it'll be bright in the a.m and I'll wake right up. Have a good night :)

It's still raining...

UGH it's been raining for two full days and is supposed to continue until tomorrow afternoon. What a mess! I wanted to get up and go to the gym this a.m but it is really hard to do that when you can hear the rain and it's so nice in bed LOL. Needless to say I didn't make it and I got up at my regular time for work.

I went after work. I'm a little nervous about my weigh in this week since I drank a lot this weekend and all those MGD64s really do add up so I've been trying to really hit it hard at the gym this week. I did 35 minutes on the arc trainer, 20 minutes on the treadmill and 20 minutes on the elliptical. I also did some squats, lunges, deadlifts and other strength training for my legs.

Just about to pass out now LOL. It's time to switch back and forth between The Biggest Loser and Dancing with the Stars to find out the results. Then it's off to bed...two more days to weigh in so I've got to behave, count everything and work my (getting smaller) butt off!!!

Fancy work bake sale

If you haven't figured it out by now I'm a social worker. I work with the elderly and those with disabilities. I investigate abuse and neglect, case manage and basically help people out when they need it if they fall into either of those categories. Before I worked doing the same job but with children. Changing to the other end of the spectrum has really opened my eyes. The biggest difference is that there is NO FUNDING available for the elderly/disabled adults. When I worked for child protective services and a kid came into care with just a shirt and diaper on we went to the store and bought them things. In my current job there is no ability to do that so we have to raise money (which isn't even allowed but what else are you supposed to do)! So we do things like soup days and soup, bread and a dessert that we've made to other people in the office. Today we had planned a Spring Fling with desserts for sale.

Great! I just love being around dessert all day, it makes my life really easy, causes no extra stress and doesn't make me worry at all. I mean put me in a room filled with different varieties of cheesecake, cupcakes, congo bars, cream puffs, ice cream and brownies and I feel no anxiety at all...um yeah right! BOOOOOOOO dessert day!!!

It was bad enough I had to make cupcakes and be alone with a can of frosting (fyi I passed that test with flying colors, no tasting of the frosting). But then surround me with it all freakin' day long, ugh you must be joking?

The good news: we made $96 for prescriptions, taxi rides and other as needed items.
The not so good news: I ate a cupcake. I didn't mean to, I had no intention of eating it but around 3:30 after being around it all day I knew I was going to eat something and there was no way it was going to be the 700+ calorie cheesecake...it could have been way worse so I'm happy about that.

I put in some extra time at the gym to make up for it. 35 minutes on the arc trainer. 30 minutes on the elliptical. A 22 minute forest walk on the treadmill. Strength training for my arms. So I ate the cupcake, but I feel like I made up for it.

Now I just have to make it through tomorrow when we sell the leftovers at half price...and NO I am not putting it into my meal plan, I'm going to try to refrain from them and just keep saying to myself a treat is a once in awhile thing and you had one yesterday.

Great Weigh in and best night ever!!!

So at my weigh in on Thursday night I lost -2lbs...that's right TWO POUNDS!!! Yay me!!! But better then that, I went out afterwards. You know what??? I saw a bunch of people I hadn't seen since I started losing weight and they were complimenting me left and right. I guess I look different. I'm thinking about putting some pictures up but I kind of like being anonymous so that would be a huge step.

Today I went out and bought my first pair of size 7 pants...that means I have totally cut my size in almost 1/2....from a 13/14 to a freakin' 7...I feel just about invincible at this point. I also looked up my BMI which I haven't done in awhile. Currently I am at 141.6lbs. If I can get to 139.6 then I will be in the normal range...FYI I started in the OBESE RANGE!!! I just feel fantastic at this point!

Long day, glad it's over.

Work and then dinner at Oma's tonight (like every Wednesday). She made shake and bake chicken, sugar snap peas, buttercup squash, salad and asparagus. It was great, I love how she makes so many veggies for me. Since we are having Easter dinner over at her house a week from Sunday I didn't want her to cook next week so I am going to bring her (and I) some tacos from the local place. She loves that but has trouble ordering so I like to bring them to her every once in awhile. I'm going to go there on Tuesday next week instead of Wednesday so it's not the day right before weigh in...love Mexican food :)

I was going to go to a cardio combat class after Oma's but I barely slept last night (I was up until about 3am just trying to fall asleep, UGH) so instead I went to the gym to walk on the treadmill. I ended up doing the forest walk for 20 minutes, then walking a mile, running a mile and walking another one...that is what you get when there is good stuff on tv. Well I guess it wasn't good but it was the trashiest show I've seen in awhile (Pretty Wild). I have never seen it before but boy is it trashy, it held my interest for awhile LOL. I'll try the cardio combat class next week since it's only $6 for an hour.

Hopefully bedtime comes early tonight! Weigh in tomorrow and I haven't peeked at all but I feel good about it.

Cooked a fantastic meal tonight

Tonight I made the best meal. I was going to make a fish taco but I only had one flat out wrap which I really want to use for lunch tomorrow soooo my plans changed a little. I cooked the tilapia in a skillet with pam, a little Lawry's seasoning and lemon. Then in another pan I cooked some mushrooms, the grilled peppers I made the other day and some jalapeno pepper. When the fish was done I topped it with the veggies, some homemade guacamole and some fresh tomatoes. OMG, it was freakin' fantastic :) I am surprising myself in the kitchen lately.

I also roasted some veggies to have on hand for later in the week. A little asparagus, zucchini, mushrooms and jalapeno w/some ms. dash garlic herb. It smells so good I might have to have some along with lunch or in my wrap tomorrow.

I went to the gym and did 35 minutes on the arc trainer, a 22 minute forest walk on the treadmill, ran for about 10 minutes and did some lunges and dead lifts. My legs are stressed out LOL but they will get over it!!! Time for some Biggest Loser motivation!!!

Ran my first straight mile today

Work today was really long today so I hit up the gym for some stress relief. I feel like I need to up my intensity since I have been going faithfully for so long that the machines are getting easier to use and I am not sweating as much.

I used the elliptical for 30 minutes and increased my level from 5 to 10. It was like new again, slightly agonizing but I think it'll be worth it in the end. I added 5lbs to all my weight training for my arms and could barely push through my last reps so I think that is a great thing.

Then I did the 22 minute nature walk on the treadmill (at the same level, I'll admit by that time I was a pretty beat and just wanted to walk) but after that I pushed myself and ran a full mile. YUP, a whole mile straight, without stopping and walking. I'm pretty happy with myself considering I haven't run a mile since the Presidential Physical Fitness Challenge in 6th grade lol.

Now it is time to watch Dancing with the Stars for some definite motivation...this year's stars are in fantastic shape :)

Warning a little food porn off plan today

I got up this morning and went to the gym. I only did 35 minutes on the arc trainer because my heart just wasn't in it. Then I drove up an hour to my mother's house and we drove another 40 minutes north to go shopping at some outlets. We had a great day, and I barely bought anything (a $5 shirt and some stuff at the Christmas Tree Shop). Our main plan was to go out to eat for lunch/dinner.

And boy did we...LOL. I hadn't eaten but that was sort of the plan since I went to the gym, showered and immediately drove to see her. We went to this place called Moat Mountain Smoke House and Brewing Co. and it was FANTASTIC! I had a cup of the vegan Thai peanut chili to start (she had the Texas style brisket and aduille chili). Then we had moat mountain pot stickers (3 Asian style pork dumplings served with sweet chili sauce and sesame slaw)...yum. Then we split the ultimate slider combo, 2 of each of the following (we each ate one):
angus beef slider w/cheddar, bacon and a special sauce
bbq pulled pork slider
creole crab cake slider w/chipolte remoulade
and a bunch of hand cut cajun french fries...OH MY GOD. Typically I don't bother with french fries but THESE...I would have eaten them off the freakin' floor they were so crispy and delicious.

We also split the 7 shots of their own 7 draft beers. My mother's fave was the Golden Dog Pilsner and mine was the Square Tail Stout...all were very good :)

Back to the gym and OP tomorrow :) but it was all worth it today!!!

Update....my computer broke for a few days :(

But it's back and running. I guess I'll go back to the St. Patrick's Day weigh in...I was DOWN -1.6lbs!!!

This is going to be a really short update and I'll write later. I went to the gym this morning and did 35 minutes on the elliptical, 35 minutes on the arc trainer and a 20 minute "forest walk" on the treadmill. I've been OP the last few days and I think I'm finally through last week where I was so irritable I could barely stand myself let alone anyone else!

The weather is BEAUTIFUL this weekend and I'm not wasting any of this day inside on the computer. Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Big day at the gym...

I had a really long workday today so when I hit up the gym tonight I was totally ready for it. I haven't been feeling well and I've been really pissy for little to no reason so I was really looking forward to a good workout. I did 50 minutes on the arc trainer (remember when I used to say these lined the gates of hell???? Now I LOVE them lol), a 22 minute "nature walk/run" on the treadmill, 10 minutes walking backwards and then another 30 minutes just walking and reading. It was fantastic and I felt great after.

It was 60 degrees out today in NH so I came home and cooked tilapia, shrimp and yellow/red peppers on the grill. I marinated the fish and shrimp with a mojito lime marinade and just grilled the peppers plain. It was FANTASTIC!!! I've never grilled fish so that was a bit tricky and some stuck (you live and learn right?) but all in all I did a pretty good job and it was really tasty.

I am weighing in tomorrow night instead of Thursday since I can't make it there Thursday and I am sort of worried about going a day early. I plan on going to the gym in the morning though and I've done the best I can so if I don't see a loss tomorrow I know I'll see a good size one next week!!! I've felt so pissy the last few days that I'm really going to try to not fall back into that regardless of what the scale says...I'll let you all know tomorrow night :)

Not feeling good today :(

I stayed home from work today because I didn't feel good. I don't really know what it was, probably a combination of a lot of things. I went to the gym this morning at 530 and did 35 minutes on the arc trainer. Then I just started to feel really gross. I went home, showered and crawled back into bed. Ugh after I got in there I couldn't bring myself to get back out. I called into work and slept til 1230! The rest of my day I didn't even change out of my pjs until I finally forced myself to go to the laundry mat. UGH, going to the laundry mat when it's raining and you are sick is pure hell. Now I'm back in my pjs and watching tv, hopefully it'll be an early night and I'll sleep good.

Maybe it's the time change? Or that damn TOM? Or the weather? I dunno, could be a combination of all three...

Time change

I got up REALLY late this morning...it could have been the dinner/dance last night, or the fight with the ex last night or the rain and wind I heard everytime I opened my eyes this morning but regardless it was late. We changed the time, it was 12 by the time I got to the gym. I did 35 minutes on the arc trainer, weights and 30 minutes on the treadmill (on nature walk).

Other than that I didn't do anything today. I'm OP, tired and ready for bed. Everyone have a great night :)

Dinner Dance tonight

I'm a member of the Ladies Auxiliary for the American Legion and we are having a dinner dance tonight (along with the Legion Riders). I think it's going to be pretty fun. The dinner is stuffed chicken breast, scalloped potatoes, veggie and a roll but since I'm helping out with it by taking tickets at the door I can manage my own meal and have exactly what I want. Most likely I'll skip the potatoes and the roll since I know I'll be having some adult beverages.

I went to the gym this morning and did 35 minutes on the arc trainer then tried the nature walk on the treadmill...it was something different so that was nice. I think I could definitely up my speed and incline but I wasn't exactly sure what I was doing so I'm going to modify it next time. I started walking backwards on the treadmill as well, I'm not sure if it'll make a difference but I see people doing it and I've heard it helps with your butt LOL.

Sidenote: I went to Applebees last night alone. I didn't really feel like calling anyone to go out but I knew I didn't want to cook. It was awkward at first but I ended up having a pretty good time. I had the Cajun Grilled Tilapia with double veggies since I hate restaurant rice...it was great! I also had a Skinny Margartia (which is new there) and only has 100 calories, it was a perfect dinner.

The weigh in results are in...fyi get on it lb for lb challenge

Did I tell you I lost???? Cause I think I did, and I knew I did!!! When you work the program it works that's for sure. Tonight at weigh in I am down 1.2 lbs for a total of 20 POUNDS DOWN...yeah you read that right 20 LBS DOWN IN 9 WEEKS...FREAKIN' RIGHT!!!

Best thing about it is I'm doing the pound for pound challenge from the biggest loser. I pledge 26lbs and I've hit 20 so far. That is 20lbs to my local food pantry. If you are not involved in this, what the hell are you doing???? Get into it, there is still time and no reason not to join. Help others while you help yourself.

http://pfpchallenge.com/ Now get at it, there really isn't an excuse!!!!

Weigh in tomorrow...

I was going to go to the gym with a friend this a.m but she cancelled on me which "forced" me right back into bed. I regretted it all day since then I had to go after work. I did 35 minutes on the arc trainer and then 22 minutes on the bike. I'm still so sore from who knows, some type of working out. I hope the soreness is gone by tomorrow, I can barely stand it.

I went to Oma's tonight for dinner, it was FANTASTIC!!! Scallops, asparagus, baby brussels sprouts, and salad. Absolutely perfect :)

I have not even snuck a peek at the scale this week so I have no clue what's going to happen tomorrow at weigh in. I know I've lost, there's virtually no way I haven't. I've been OP and I've been working out everyday. I guess I just have to wait and see what happens. After weigh in I am going with my mother to Margaritas. She gave up booze for Lent so I probably won't have any adult beverages to support her but we are definitely splitting and appetizer and fish tacos with pineapple salsa...I can not wait!!!

I am so beat!

Today was such a long day, work is just not slowing down! I went to put my gym clothes on at the end of the day and I didn't have my sports bra or socks, DAMN IT! I drove home and decided that I would go for a walk/run instead since I didn't want to drive back to the gym and it was still light out.

I went for 50 minutes, walked up the hills (or walked backwards up them) and ran down them. I was sweating and it seemed like a good workout, different at least. My legs still hurt a little from using the free weights and doing squats and lunges last night so this definitely didn't help. I also got a nice looking blister on my foot tonight, UGH. I don't bitch about being single too often cause at this point in my life I enjoy it BUT I could really use a massage (yeah I know I could make an appointment and pay for one but that's probably not ever going to happen)!

I told one of my friends I'd use my guest pass to bring her to the gym tomorrow. She chose 530 a.m. I am not even sure what the world looks like at that time but I'll find out tomorrow. Then it's off to work and finish the day with dinner at Oma's. I'm planning on doing The Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout tomorrow night or Thursday morning depending on how I feel.

Back on track today

I am back on plan after another weekend of some questionable food choices. I may have eaten an entire small Hawaiian pizza on Saturday night by myself...ugh I'll admit all of a sudden I found myself depressed (for little to no reason) and I was shoveling pizza down my throat without even really tasting it. BOOOOO ME!!!

I picked myself up on Sunday, went to the gym and got right back on plan. I stuck with my plan to have one hot dog at the Celtics game even though there was a little bit of pressure to have other items (hello loaded nachos) since they were all around me smelling heavenly but I managed to pass it all up.

Today I was completely on plan. I went to the gym after work and did 30 minutes on the elliptical, used the free weights for some lifting that I learned at the boot camp class I attended this past weekend, and then walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I came home (it has been so nice here in New Hampshire this past few days that it was still light out and warm) and it was still nice and light enough out for me to use my grill!!!! SWEET!!! I grilled up some steak, 2 peppers and some asparagus and had a fantastic meal. I have enough left overs to have a steak and cheese wrap tomorrow night, YAY!!!

First a thank you for my award :)

Thank you to Genie @ Diet of 51, she gave me an award but my computer is not allowing me to cut and paste anything today without booting me off the internet so unfortunately I'm not going to be able to put it on my blog :( wth!

I guess it was a lying...I mean "creative writing" award and I am supposed to come up with 7 (I think, hard to remember the rules when you can't cut and paste them) "facts about me" but only 1 of them is true and then you all are supposed to guess which one is the truth. I'll give it a shot...this seems harder then I thought it would be though LOL!

1. I work part time at the fair when it comes to town in the fall for extra money.
2. I love to sky dive but will never bungee jump.
3. My brother lives in Alaska and is a fisherman.
4. I was suspended from high school for a week for participating in the senior prank.
5. I have "bad ass" tattooed on my butt cheek.
6. I've never had any Little Debbie snacks.
7. I became a social worker because I couldn't pass the statistic class needed to be a teacher.

Well there you have it...only one of those is even close to the truth, good luck guessing.

Clothes shopping today...NSV!

Huge non scale victory today. I went shopping because my jeans are literally falling off my ass and I just can't stand it anymore! I currently have one pair of jeans that I actually like and that fit but I have to wear heels with them. I really wanted a pair I can relax in (I'm not big into getting dressed up, I do it about once a week). So I need the jeans I can just wear with flip flops or sneakers so badly!!! The ones I've been wearing have holes in them, belt loops missing and are falling apart. I want comfort but I still want them to look nice LOL.

So I headed for Old Navy and bought a pair of Diva jeans SHORT size 8. Yay me!!! I also bought one of their new skirts (bright orange, elastic waist so I could get a small) and a few size medium tops. SWEET!!! This is the first time in months that I have actually enjoyed going shopping :)

Now I'm just relaxing a little and waiting to go to the Celtics game! GO CELTICS!!!

Drum roll please...weigh in...

So I agreed to give an update even though I was nervous about my weigh in this week...I only lose .4lbs this week. Yup it's my lowest in my now 8 weeks. I can understand it due to my piss poor decision making this past weekend (hello Mohegan Sun buffet you bitch) but I can be disappointed. At least it's a loss right???

I guess that is all I have to say for tonight. I will admit I've been out with the Captain (Morgan that is). I will not give up on Weight Watchers, it obviously works when you work the program. I will be OP tomorrow and I will get it done. Thanks for reading (my on occasion drunken, thank you Captain) blogs :) You can do it just like I can...-18.8lbs in 8 weeks...get it done!!!!

Weigh in tomorrow night

I'm a little nervous. Not sure if I did enough to make up for my weekend of fun. I hope so though, I've been OP all week since and I've been to the gym each day. Hopefully it is enough to make up for it.

I think I ate more then I should have at Oma's house tonight, damn it! She makes such good food but tonight she made Stove Top which I have to say is not fancy and not something she usually makes but it is so freakin' good I could barely stand it. All I was thinking while I was eating it was Hello Sodium, but I just couldn't stop with it, damn it! LOL

I plan on getting up tomorrow and doing The Biggest Loser's Last Chance Workout in the a.m before work. I have a busy day at work and I want to make sure I get a workout in before my weigh in (usually I go to the gym in the morning or right before my weigh in). Hope it all works out and I have a loss, fingers crossed...

2 month update on Measurements and sizes

On January 4th, 2010 I made a decision to change my life by joining Weight Watchers and committing to losing this weight that I've been carrying around. It's been 2 months now (well in 2 days but I have time to do this tonight so that's when it is getting done). Two months ago I wrote that my measurements were:

chest: 38 inches (size D)
stomach: 37 inches
hips: 42 inches
thighs: 22 inches
arms: 12 inches

I also reported that I wore a size 13 pants, x-large shirts and received 22 points a day in the Weight Watchers program.

Today, 2 months later, I can report the following:

chest: 33.5 inches (guessing still a D but it looks like I need to get remeasured)
stomach: 34 inches
hips: 37.5 inches
thighs: 20.5 inches
arms: 11 inches

I now wear I size 9 pants, large shirts (some mediums) and receive 20 points a day in the Weight Watchers program.

So what do I have to say about it? Yay Me!!! Although I definitely thought my arms would be bigger but I guess if I really think about it they are just losing their flab. I'm so happy with myself, with the weight that I've lost so far and with the way that I feel (which is fantastic)!

Now just a little bit about today. I'm trying to work out and eat completely OP so that I can lose a little this week (make up for Mohegan Sun and not losing this weekend). I did 35 minutes on the arc trainer, strength training and 22 minutes on the bike. I am also OP today so I'm on the right path that's for sure.

weekend confession but i'm back OP today

UGH...this is the second time I'm writing this since my computer messed up sooooo it's probably going to be shorter then the first time.

I fell off the wagon this weekend. Friday we had no power so I went out to eat, of course so did everyone else in the surrounding towns. I couldn't even find standing room so I went to my friend's daughter's basketball game and was going to get something to eat after. By the time the game was over I was starving I went to Chili's. I could not eat meat since it was a Friday in Lent, ugh I gave in and ordered the Southwestern Egg Rolls (at least 22 points, ugh).

On Saturday I woke up and boarded the bus for Mohegan Sun (armed with a backpack full of snacks and a cooler with some diet soda...always be prepared right?). On the bus I had a diet dew and some baked chips while everyone else bought the girl scout cookies they conveniently had on the bus for sale (are you freakin' kidding me!). We got to Mohegan and well the drinks are free but tiny so I was having some light beers. Lunch consisted of the buffet since we got free coupons. It started so well, salad and mussels, then I had to have some pasta with pesto and clams (I mean it was made to order!). Then some more mussels, some seafood something (guaranteed solid butter and breadcrumbs), a blondie for dessert. Then it's a 3 hour ride home so I ignored my packed snacks and got a Dunkin' Donuts bagel with butter. UGH...

Sunday I got up and went to the gym (35 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes on the arc trainer, and 30 minutes on the treadmill). See how I was totally trying to make up for it??? Well that went down the drain when I decided I should have beers the rest of the day. I went home after and instead of my planned Boca burger I ordered a grilled chicken kabob sub (on white bread sub roll of course) with lettuce, tomato, a ton of feta cheese and light ranch with a side of sweet chili Doritos. UGH...

Today though I am back on track.

Breakfast: pineapple and blueberries
Lunch: weight watchers bagel w/laughing cow cheese and a side of asparagus
Dinner: flat out wrap pizza...flat out wrap, tomato sauce, 50% reduced fat Cabot cheddar, red peppers, mushrooms, feta cheese, Italian seasoning and a cucumber on the side

I also went to the gym (30 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes on the arc trainer) + I had to avoid pizza night at the gym...you read that right, the first Monday of the month is pizza night at Planet Fitness, why they do this is beyond me! It is SO HARD to smell fantastic pizza while you are working out and then walk by it without grabbing some on the way out, but I did it! Freakin' Right :)

Weigh In Update SV! I've had no power :(

I haven't written since I live in New Hampshire and if you haven't heard we have been in a state of emergency due to hellish winds and rain. I lost power on Thursday night and didn't get it back until Saturday morning. UGH! Lucky for me I have a membership to Planet Fitness (which did have power) so in addition to getting my work outs in I was showering there, I can be so resourceful LOL.

On my weigh in night, Thursday, I lost another 2.6lbs bringing the total to -18.4lbs in 7 weeks and making me so happy I can barely stand it. SWEET!

Today I went to Mohegan Sun (why not no one had power around here and we had already paid for the bus tickets). My mother went and a bunch of my friends, none of us had been before in my group. We had a great time. I didn't win big :( but I did break even. I drank more beer then I should have and we ate at the buffet. I was really good there though and mostly ate salad and clams since they were fantastic. The bus ride was pretty long and I was glad to get back and see that I had power. Now it's time to relax and go to bed :)

This work week is killing me!

Work has been an absolute nightmare this week; I am so busy. Tomorrow I have to go in early (which sucks SO bad, it's hard enough for me to get up on Thursday mornings to work out without having to try to do it even earlier) and I'm going in early because I have a networking brunch. What kind of organization schedules a brunch on my weigh in day? I mean really what are these people trying to do to me? I've come to grips with these types of work situations though (fruit is my friend), well unless they end up being so boring I can't stop thinking about the bacon I'm smelling...then we might have a problem.

I skipped the gym today. Well not exactly, I mean I did drive around the parking lot but there were no spaces and I was not walking from the back of the building in the dark (this was after work) in the pouring rain. No thanks. I just went home and did The Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout. I did this one last week and I really enjoy it. Actually that is a complete lie, I hate every second of it but the workout is fantastic and I think that this might be something that I do each week. I'm hoping to get up early enough tomorrow to do it in the morning too. I'll have to wait and see how that goes though.

I changed dinner with my Oma from tonight until tomorrow night since she wants to have pizza from the local pizza place. I'm going to use that as my after weigh in treat tomorrow night. I really can't wait and from what she said when I spoke with her this morning, neither can she :)

ugh where is the weekend?

It's only Tuesday and I'm already looking for it! Tuesdays are my worst work day. I'm basically glued to my desk answering all the incoming calls, taking intakes and solving problems for other workers that are not available as they arise. Just a few things I dealt with today would be some walk in's looking for help (mostly $$), supervision with my boss, a hoarder with bed bugs and an unmediated schizophrenic that needed groceries. I have to say it was a slightly overwhelming day and I am glad it's over.

I was so busy that I missed breakfast but I just saved that and ate my weight watchers bagel (toasted) with laughing cow cheese for an afternoon snack. I never have an afternoon snack, well that's not true sometimes when it's that time of the month I have popcorn but it's really rare. I'm kind of glad I did though because I wanted to make my egg casserole for dinner and it takes a long time to cook it so I didn't eat until 745. Well worth the wait though I LOVE THIS MEAL, I love the leftovers, it's just fantastic. I've put the recipe in here before (and talk about it a lot so look back at my old posts if you want it, I believe I made it really early on during the first week of my blog).

I went to the gym after work. I didn't want to but I did it. I did 35 minutes on the arc trainer and then 30 minutes on the elliptical. I am nervous about the weather the rest of the week; they are saying both snow and rain so who knows? I'd like to get in there tomorrow night and Thursday morning but we will see how that goes. I really am open to the OnDemand exercise videos but I'd like to only do it one of those days if I have too, not both.

I have enough points leftover tonight for a vitabrownie and chocolate sugar free pudding I think I'm going to put the pudding right on top...sweet :)

Wicked LONG day!

It's 930 pm and I just got the opportunity to sit down, UGH. Today was a long one but everything worked out. I had work, then the gym (35 minutes on the arc trainer and strength training), then the laundry mat, then my friend's daughter's basketball game. They are in the Finals and they won, YAY! Next game is on Friday night and I'm sure I'll be going. Her daughter is a senior so this is a HUGE deal, it could be the last time she gets to play.

I got home from that and still had to make something for dinner (my go to easy dinner= boca grillers burger w/fat free cheddar, lettuce, tomato and bbq sauce and a pickle on the side and skim milk). YUM! Then I had to put my laundry away, do the dishes, cut up all the fruit and veggies I bought the other day and make my lunch. I'm ready for bed! It's time for Big Bang Theory and then that's where I am headed.

Side note: whatever the Ex wrote yesterday he apparently deleted, I didn't get a chance to read it. I don't plan on using this blog as a bickering tool between the two of us. Thanks for reading :)

It's been awhile...but it's over ugh oh well.

The ex...why do I waste my time? The amount of time I spend convincing him I'm not with someone else could be used spending time finding someone that actually appreciates me. I went out with him last night (yeah that's right he might occasionally be the "friend" in some of my postings). But you know what? SO WHAT! Today showed me another complete waste of my time.

Tonight is a whole new situation and I have to deal with the same old same old. Same old bullshit and same old ridiculous questions. I give up. I've got no more in me. There's only so many days that you can do nothing, stay at home and still be accused of bullshit. In fact I don't really care anymore, the only thing I wish was my actual life was just as exciting as my talked about/pretend life. Oh well, maybe next year, a girl can dream right???? :)